10 months ago
To anyone who knows anything I appreciate your help very much
So I have a problem that's keeps getting worse and I can figure out the cuz I've ask a few different people some of them say it's psychological some say it's physical but nobody has been able to help me so far but my problem started when I was nine years old I had a cousin who I was very close to since he was born but he died when he was three months old while I was a church camp the camp was a few weeks long he died on the thursday of the last week I was there I know what I'm about to say may seem insignificant but I've always had a feeling that it had something to with my problem on the day he died I didn't know at the time that he had died but for some reason on that day at the camp I felt an intense sadness all day I had never been sad at all while I was at the camp just angry but to continue my story when I got home from the camp I was told that he had died and I cried for months on end but ever since the day I felt the intense sadness I had a soul crushing pain in my chest and when I heard he died it only got worse I'm 13 years old now and that pain only continues to get worse I wasn't going to say anything further about except for the few people I have already asked but the pain is starting to get unbearable sorry for the long story behind it but with the way things are going I'm not sure how much longer I can handle it
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I sorry I think I said to much in that previous text
I can relate to a few things. my family also has a history of depression. I've been getting better. it's been a 15 yr struggle for me. now I'm only going through an episode every 3 or so months. I've always been made to pretend I'm happy and everything is okay. my mother didn't understand until I was in my late teens that this was depression. as a girl my file assumed I was hormones. I attempted suicide as a young teen and even into my early adulthood. Now, with a family of my own I have to think about them. Some days I still struggle but it's not worth dying. you're so young. one day you'll be like me. you'll look back and feel relief that you didn't do it. Many good things happen in life and I couldn't imagine missing these moments. I am so deeply sorry for your loss, I never got to know my father but i know what it's like having a step dad. Please be glad you got to spend the time you did with your father. It took years for my brother and into.get along with your step dad. We get along better as adults than as a teenage child and step parent. there are groups out there to help blended families. my family is looking at taking one because my husband has trouble adapting to out toddlers attitude and the whole blended family thing. you'll be okay. I'm sending my love <3 you can message me anytime you need helpful words or experienced advice. I'm here.