Today, I would like to talk about my illness and the daily struggle of about 5.7 millions of other Americans. Our illness is called Bipolar Disorder.
Bipolar Disorder is defined as a mental disorder marked by alternating periods of elation and depression.
In my own personal terms, it is when you can't stay happy and can't overcome the sad.
With my diagnosis, I was labeled Bipolar I, which meant I could be super happy or super sad at any given moment. Usually there were triggers that could set them off, but those triggers were usually when I was happy and setting them off sent me into a depression.
While I was in that depressive state, the world around turned black. My energy was gone, my eating became scarcer and scarcer, and my will to do anything about it was gone.
However, when I was in my Manic state, I wanted to do everything! I wanted to hang out with all of my friends at the same time, I worked and worked myself until I couldn't move, and my irritation towards everything was just through the roof. In my opinion, it is worse to be in a manic state than a depressive state, and here's why.