Happy National Coming Out Day
I have something to say..
I've been thinking about this alot, and talking to a good friend last night I think I've finally come to terms with it.
I'm a boy.
I've always been a boy. Even when I was a small child in elementary I always told everyone I was a boy and always played with the boys. I grew up with guys all around me. I hated anything girly and was forced to like it because "thats what girls should like". I'm not sure about what progress I need to make now, but just like all of you, I need to get used to this information too. Its a complete shock, honestly, I didn't think I'd ever accept it without doubt.
I know its going to take some time, but please refer to me as he/him. And please call me Kai, because I've been using that name for 4 years and I think its a good name to use for now on. I don't mind the slip ups, because I myself will most likely refer to myself wrongly.
Of course, in real life I will have to continue playing a girl until I can find time to take steps in becoming a boy, hopefully I will be on my own by that time and hopefully its soon. I wouldn't dare tell my family because none of them (except like 2 of them) would accept me. They would try to tell me otherwise and proceed to harass me about it. So for my own safety and to my dismay, I have to postpone any progress for this.
sydthesloththank you for trusting your audience with that information :) i've not put this on the internet but i'm bi. i don't tell a lot of people bc the stigma against bisexuals is that we're afraid of admitting we're gay, we are greedy, or we're not faithful to our partners. i hate the stigma. but, i am who i am and i can't change it
Bias Week Day 2
part of @kpopandkimchi 's Bias Week schedule~
Ahhh, Jongdae
Back around when I first got into exo (2014, sometime after Luhan had left ;-;) my bias was constantly changing. It started off with Kris, did some crazy loop with Sehun, Suho, and Kai, before landing on Chanyeol. I was really into Chanyeol for a few months up until May-June of 2015. At that time I was leaning more towards Xiumin but, as always, Xiumin and Chen are a package deal, you can't have one with the other.
SO, after watching showtime for the upteenth time, I started to realize how precious and caring Jongdae is, how loud and funny he is and how many times he's almost made me go deaf from his yelling lmao
But it also made me realize how selfless and kind he is, how he almost never cries so he can take care of his members, and also how he's sadly so very underappreciated. It broke my heart watching videos and fancams, seeing all of those signs and only 3 or 4 of them saying "Chen" on them, or how all of the members would have the fans screaming loudly, but when it came to Chen or Xiumin the crowd wouldn't be as loud as they were with the others. Despite all of that, he still appreciated the fans and loved them, even if they didn't love him as much as he loved them.
He's such a playful precious soul who just wants the world to be a happy place and who smiles no matter what's thrown at him. Sure his handsome looks and beautiful singing is a bonus to having him as a bias, but the reason I love him so much is because he appreciates everything and everyone in life no matter what, he never has anything negative to say and will defend the people he loves with his life. He's the type of person that once he loves you, he'll love you for life, and its so beautiful to see how much love he just has to share.
JayRaiderWhen i got into BTS like real hardcore, I first noticed Jin, because who doesn't notice him, I mean he's straight up beautiful with a beautiful voice, and is just legit pure visuals,but some time around I saw Rap Moanter, and he caught my attention in Dope, I I don't know what happened but it just did, and it was a magical moment XD. Anyways, I got into him and stared to get to know him better , I fell for his personality, and his mind firstly, I love how he's so sweet and kind, he cares a lot out ARMY, and his members. He's also extremely talented, he has an amazing voice, and his dimples!( -fangirls-) hehehe, well that's how pretty much Namjoon became my UB. ☺️
Bias Week Day 1
Thanks to the wonderful @kpopandkimchi I'm posting cards this whole week since I've been very busy but I don't ever miss a chance to post about my sweet angel~
KIM JONGDAE
Chennie Chen Chen
My precious puppy who has also managed to hurt me because holy wow look at him
He's a sweet angel who cares more about others than about himself and is very much in love with his band members
Tagging the randoms
Under Your Skin HIATUS
I APOLOGIZE MY WONDERFUL READERS!!!
I just got a new laptop 2 weeks ago so I can write my stories but I've been very unfocused and stressed ever since I finished high school so I haven't been able to work on anything!
I'll try to work on something soon, whether that be the two stories I'm already working on (including this one) or something new, but either way I need to get my creative juices flowing somehow. Please be patient if you've been waiting for the next chaper (whis is probably no one aha) and thank you for your understanding.
Tagging my fic list!!
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Bio
Kpop/Jrock mutt. (attempting to) learn Korean and Chinese.
According to everyone, I'm a nerd.
