For the last several days I've taken a very hard look at my life as a whole. What I have been through, what I have seen and done, what i haven't done and so many more things. I took three steps back a really evaluated everything.
It was a shock to my system to realize how poorly I've been living. A family of secrets, lies and drama. Constant stress. Anxiety. Poor physical health as I forgot to take care of myself for the sake of the family. Things from my past that just....weren't normal in families.
Then the shocking realization that brought me to my knees, as I looked upon my daughters and saw them imitating the behaviors I've always known to be how things were supposed to be. I made the revelation then and there that if I don't act now...they will suffer my same fate. I decided then I could save them from this web of lies, drama, family politics and stress.
Its not just a new place to live I am searching for. Its a new life entirely. It really hit me what that meant over these past few days of self reflection. I have a lot of work to do.
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