"Hopefully this will work." You mumbled preparing everything before Namjoon got home. Checking over your list in your mind, you made your way to get dress. Pulling on some casual clothing you went to check the food in the kitchen. You felt constantly anxious that Namjoon might ignore you, like he has for the past week. You tried everything to make him open up and talk or at least acknowledge you. You knew he was stressed and tried you best to help him even taking the small arguments because he was just hurting. You are a very selfless person when it came to someone you care for.
Settling yourself on the sofa you waited for his arrival. Messing with the edge of your clothes fiddling around as you grew more nervous. Time slowly ticked by as hours passed he was out later than usual. Not one text since you said good morning to him because he was already at work. Finally you caved not caring anymore. Standing up you changed into a large t-shirt and shorts, grabbing a bottle of wine in the process with a glass. Turning on the stereo you played your favorite music, when you were younger. It often help with your past depression as music filtered thru the crackling speakers.
Pouring some wine into the clear frail glass, you quickly downed it. Refilling it you set it aside you were not much of a drinker and two was considered max. Losing your self in the music silent tears gently fell following the curve of your cheek, reflecting your emotions. Everything that took years to buried begun to resurface at the worst time imaginable. You didn't even hear the door slam shut or loud noises of anger bouncing around in the apartment. Too lost in your depression you didn't notice Namjoon glare into your back.
"I told you not to stay up, Y/N!" He huffed out, annoyance filling his core. He grew more upset at your non response, striding over to you he grabbed you shoulder and turn you towards him.
"Jagi! Lis...Jagi?" He asked concerned his emotions switching quickly when he saw your tears. Your eyes were red and puffy. Your eyebrows furrowed, your lips quivering in fear as you were lost in memories.
Seeing you in a shaken state he grabbed your attention by hugging you. He tucked you into his chest as protection. Just like that you broke sobbing all of your insecurities and heart out. Trying to collect yourself you put up a barrier something you had not done in a long time.