2 years ago
reopening the heart panicked with fear
im gonna keep this short. i recently started dating again this past winter after 5 years of being single and really enjoying it after my last relationship which by the way was a performer in the adult film industry. I thought that would be cool, guys it so is not cool, you are not consider a human being you are a commodity and nothing more. The good that came from it was i learned that i believe in monogamy and found that i prefer women with self respect and who actually will make me work for their affection and physical love. I also came to the realization that Jim Morrisson was right he said "People lie about love it is not this magical perfect image. It is an open experiance that can bring much pain, so many people are afraid of emotion that they create this illusion of what love is and those people never truly live." i am probably off on the quote forgive me but my memory isn't the best i used to do a shit load of drugs. Well thats all i wanted to say. ( We now return you to your regular scheduled program which is all ready in progress)

i like to believe that i am a intelligent sensitive you man, but with the soul of a clown that forces me to blow it at the most crucial of moments.