Burnt Offering (2014)

As an artist, you are often asked to explain why you do what you do. Then, in typical artist’s fashion, you stumble on your thoughts and feelings and passions, the euphoric highs and the dejected lows, tiptoeing past shuddersome moments in your psyche that you cannot comprehend, with the intent of cramming a universe of love and hurt, heaven and hell, into one sentence. It is an art within an art which many artists never master. Now, I am not an artist myself—am I? I breakdance, and I also experience the general distress of explaining me to the world before I explain me to myself, so at least I can relate to artists. The great thing about dance is the more you try to figure yourself out, the more you realize how little you know of yourself, and the better your art becomes because of it. There is a momentary trade of clarity for productivity that tends to balance out. That’s not what I tell people, of course. “Why do you breakdance?” I chuckle and pitch a surface response. “The ladies love it, it keeps me healthy, and it’s fun.” I tell people what they want to hear. I’m not sure that’s the right thing to do, but it keeps the exchange cordial. After many selfish attempts at bringing them into to my world—one that probably belongs buried in the mind’s catacomb—I learned that they don’t really want to be there. The dancer’s art is not his high leaps, magnificent spins, or his musicality. His art is his ability to guide you on an intimate tour of the darkest alleys of his soul while you applaud his veneer. Still, people who don’t know any better ask me. So, I take them into the cipher.

Bullet Journal: The Analog Organizer that Trumps My To-Do Apps

I tried at least 3 to-do apps but I still wasn't meeting goals. I was stressed. Successful, sure, but disorganized. I knew I could do better at life, I just didn't know how. Then, my cousin Chuck (@chuckfeerick) came to visit. He took out this "bullet journal" thing and gave me an impromptu tutorial. I thumbed through the versatile life organizer. "Looks complicated, but I should really give it a shot." I started a week later. Took some discipline to learn the format, but that was the small step backward I needed to launch forward. Months passed, and I learned the curves of my journal. Certain bits weren't helping me and other facets needed tweaking to fit my freelance lifestyle. Be on the lookout for a tour of my bullet journal and its particulars. Ryder Carroll (@rydercarroll) is the designer of the bullet journal. He's also the reason I'm not homeless (I was that disorganized). Check out his work here.

LASZLO :: TSVOTW (1996) :: 03

"When we speak of a "system" we often speak of something that exists only in our mind. For example, a "theological system" or a "system of logic" exists solely in the minds of human beings and not in the world that they inhabit. ... This has now changed." "The concepts "life" and "matter"--or organic and inorganic--have lost much of their usefulness as the ultimate and defining categories of what things are in the light of organizational invariances." "The proper term for this highest level of organizational invariance is "natural system." In this use "natural" contrasts with "artificial" and not with "social." "We don't know the basic nature of our son until we know him as a system arising in nature with properties shared with all other such systems; his unique characteristics are but specifications of these properties. When he cries because a favorite toy has been accidentally switched to a lower shelf, you encounter traits of specific individuality. When he laughs because his older brother repeated the family joke, you meet with a family characteristic. When he comes home from school with knowledge and pride in the work of his class, you encounter a social characteristic. When his throat hurts because of inflamed tonsils you are confronted with a trait of human physiology. And so on, down the line until we come up against the basic structuring of energies, information, and substances which permits the child, as a system of organized complexity, to counteract the wear and tear on his components and grow rather than decay."
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