sometimes I wish that I didn't have the life I have now .. is that sad or a bad thing ? I know that my friends aren't psychologist or anything of the sortbut I'm still gonna vent a little why does it look like I won't ever get to be truly happy or successful... I see all my friends who are....married, have a successful career ,and have a family. yet here I am, I feel like I haven't accomplished anything with my life... my faith ( btw I was brought up in a faith filed family) has been very very worn and I hate top day it but it feels like I've lost my way . I'm not as strong as I was in my faith and that honestly worries me a lot . I seem to have absolutely NO social life ( other than here ) and I feel very pathetic right about now so my thing is why am I not really truly happy ? Is it because I am "too nice" for my own good or is it because I am a easily influenced person who sucks at life ? ........ I'm just ranting right now but still out bothers me that I don't have a life anymore and I know that I could take control and start to make my own personal changes and improvements in my life but the main problem is my own self. I just don't know what I want to do with my life and that scares the Hell out of me. any advice would be greatly appreciated.