2 years ago
Arellano1052
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Caution: Sadness Ahead (Or Below, Rather)
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Um... La Dispute. They literally shatter my heart with a few of their songs. This one, in particular, has been stuck in my head recently. I don't really know why, though haha Anywho.... Get the tissues ready. @ButterflyBlu Forgive me, ma'am. I think this may be the last emotion annihilating song I post lol Band: La Dispute Song: Andria Genre: Spoken Word Feels: 10/8 gr8, m8
"And I remember the skin of your fingers, the spot three quarters up I'd always touch when I was out of things to say. You held my hand, but you were too afraid to speak and I could never understand. I remember when you leaned in quick to kiss me, and I swear that not a single force on earth could stop the trembling of my hand. And I remember how you smiled through the smoke in a crowded little coffeehouse and laughed at all my jokes. And I remember the way that you dressed and how we wasted all the best of us in alcohol and sweat. And I remember when I knew that you'd be leaving, how I barely kept up breathing and I bet if I had to do it all again, I'd feel the same pain. And I remember panicked circles in the terminal in tears, how I wept to god in fits. I've hated airports ever since. It must be true what people say, that only time can heal the pain and every single day I feel it fade away, but... I still remember how the distance tricked us and lead us helpless by the wrist into a pit to be devoured. I still remember how we held so strong to this though we had never really settled on a way out. I still remember the silence, and how we'd always find a way to turn and run to our mistakes. I still remember how it all came back together just to fall apart again."
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I had to walk away from this card and come back. This one was the hardest yet, @Arellano1052. Don't get me wrong. I loved the song. The lyrics were incredible... heartfelt and... brutal. Brutal is the word I decided to go with here, for myself only. I think everyone's felt this kind of loss... But parts of this hit too close to home as a widow, I guess. Memories that you forever treasure, but have to choose to let drift a little. Obviously, I didn't have a moment of clarity where I realized my husband was leaving me. All the same, I guess I did, though. I had that moment when I realized that "this is happening"... my husband is leaving my existence and I. Can't. Change. It. "How I barely kept up breathing and I bet if I had to do it all again, I'd feel the same pain. And I remembered panicked circles in the terminal in tears, how I wept to God in fits. I've hated airports ever since. It must be true what people say, that only time can heal pain and every single day I feel it fade away, BUT..." *Sigh* that "but". So true. Maybe this is why I'm ok with living in Cali, even though I still don't think of it as home. (Never will?) I was constantly in places where it hurt just to BE THERE. People tell me constantly that it gets easier. Such bullshit. Some days are easier. Some are total train wrecks. Sometimes you wake in the morning and everything is fine... and the wrong dumb song or commercial just unravels everything. I think that must be the same of love anywhere, though. If you love someone, you see them every place that you happen to glance. I'm rambling again. Imma shut up. You don't have to stop posting emotional music. Honestly, you don't. I love it. It challenges me, and truth be told, I guess I must be one of those people you referred to in the last card. Lol. Who knew?! :)
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