I dream in car crashes and
red, dead faced flashes
as images of your cut short existence
paralyze me until fingers can feel you breathing;
tangible proof that I have you for one more day.
I gaze into your pupils,
sneak glances when you aren't looking
reminding myself the sirens splitting
my body from yours is trapped away
in my imagination.
I go crazy, fear driving me to the brink
and I tear your eyelids open as you sleep
because checking your breathing just isn't enough anymore.
I need to see the spark that fills your face
with the life I can not let go of.
Another night of terror
and I am hanging off the ledge
watching the first leaves drop
And then I remember
that nature has found away to make
even death beautiful.