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Woman's Honest Portraits Show What Major Weight Loss Really Looks Like
So this is my first card. It's really just something I wanted to share. I also wonder about the emotional state of those who experience major weight loss. In one of my classes in college my teacher talked of her thesis which was on depression and mental unstability among gastric bypass patients resulting from their major weight loss. It was nice to read that there is an artist touch to the issue. Her photos shows an honest portrait of her journey. Have a look at the article and look up her collection, it's really provoking and poignant...I relate as I'm sure many who faced huge weight loss...even those who don't...can too.
@ButterflyBlu I'm glad you liked it. The part about stretch marks and wrinkles resonates with me...Every change of our body leaves a mark whether we get bigger or smaller...I like to think that it's...a marker of stories of our lives that we can share. Thank you for sharing your story with me. It's good to share.
Wow. Kudos to her for being secure enough to put those out there. The mere fact that the last one is called "...Or For Worse" is significant to me. I've been in this lady's shoes. I've been a dancer and gymnast since I was three years old. I cheered for ten years. I played basketball for two. I've always had a curvy, athletic shape, what many call an hourglass. (Large breasts, small waist, curvier hips.) When I got pregnant with my son, I wound up on bedrest for the majority of the time because of a back problem that was untreatable while pregnant. I'm also narcoleptic. I even had to take my college classes by web that last trimester. By the time I gave birth, my body, obviously, had changed. I couldn't go back to dance for another 6 months because of my back. I gained a lot more weight than I even thought should happen in that amount of time. (The metabolics of narcolepsy wasn't explained to me until much later.) It was a really hard thing for me to deal with, mentally and emotionally. I even considered not dancing again, but my husband was constantly encouraging me. I slowly started back on the same plan I had always done and lost the weight, but I still looked in the mirror and, mentally, saw the same body. It was hard. About 7-8 months after I went back to dance, I was prepping for the first recital I did after my husband passed. It was a contemporary partner dance with a guy that I had been dancing with for years. It was part of our exit test for our senior year of college. I had always dealt with stage fright in a big way, but I knew this time was different. I remember telling him that I couldn't do it. I couldn't dance in front of people again because *I* was different. (It was an emotional time in general... The entire routine was choreographed around losing my husband.) I remember standing there, at dress rehearsal, thinking, "this won't look good because *I* don't look good." It didn't matter how many people told me otherwise, either. But we did the dress rehearsal and, honestly, I can't explain it to you. I broke down in the middle of a lift. My partner and I wound up crying backstage and rushing to redo my makeup before curtain call. For some reason, he lifted me and I realized It Was Fine. I was still a dancer and that hadn't changed. We danced. It was beautiful and everyone loved it. (We passed!) The stretch marks aren't going away... Its a permanent change. There are marks that shouldn't be there and places that were firm will never be 100% the same way again. But they're a part of who I am now. I can't change that moment in my past. I do have to be very careful of how and what I eat, because having narcolepsy unfortunately means that my metabolism can be nonexistent at times. I'm still a dancer. I teach and choreograph now. I see SO many insecurities in my kids (ages 3-18, male and female). People are brutal to one another... but you can't say anything to someone that they haven't likely thrown at themselves. I'm sorry this turned out so long. It just hit me hard, one artist to another. We put ourselves out there so we can help someone else, I think. I think this woman is Amazing.
Wow @ButterflyBlu thank you so much for sharing this. I'm glad you were able to dance again. I feel like there's something really important about finding ways to express yourself. That feeling you described really says it all: it's freeing. And you're so right, people can be cruel to one another, but often we can be even crueler to ourselves. <3 I think when it comes to weight, people can be especially aggressive because there's so little information and truth out there about it. Like @alywoah said, it's not healthy to obsess about weight and not eat, but often that's what people feel like they have to do, in order to fit a definition of "healthy" that might not actually be their definition. I actually had no idea narcolepsy had such an effect on your metabolism. There's no one size fits all for health, and I don't think our culture reflects that right now. Whether you lose weight or don't, the emphasis should always be on your health and your self-worth. If those are suffering, those should be the priority
Thanks for tagging me, @Shannonl5 ..... @Candyland1986 this was a very interesting article. It seems like the emotional state of someone who is going through weight loss is seemingly hushed. For me personally, when I was losing weight, I was initially happy and ecstatic. However, I soon crawled into a world of calorie-counting, food obsession, periods of starvation, depression and just really obsessed habits. It wasn't very good for me. When I got into powerlifting, my view on body image and health shifted. Although I am bigger now from my smallest, I feel free. I have never been a very skinny girl. And when I was sorta thin, I wasn't eating. It has always been a struggle of trying to get to that magical 125lbs -- which has always been so incredibly hard for me. There needs to be a balance. I am starting to become more comfortable and confident about my rolls, soft parts, and chunky thighs. I am about 30 pounds heavier from my smallest, but my god I am so much happier.
@ButterflyBlu I'd love to see that comment in a card. I think a lot of people would benefit from it!
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