I was tagged by @B1A4BTS5EVER to do @Katiems #1 Rule Challenge and decided to do it thanks to the help and encouragement from @AimeeH and @VixenViVi
WARNING: This is a pretty lengthy and ramble post, I did summarize it at the bottom.
Also, I did leave out some major details and I apologize if I soundl like I'm being unfair to my dad.
I would also like to share that this is my first time telling my story while sober
RULE #1 Challenge:
1: Make a card about something you've been struggling with or something that has stood in the way of your happiness before, is there something in Kpop that inspired you or has helped you through this? Share your story!
2: Comment on fellow Kpop Vingle fams story, give some advice and then relate their story to a Kpop song or idol it reminds you of!
Let’s start with the basics, My name is Lilith, I am 21, and I am a huge fan of Seo Taiji.
My relationship with my dad:
To spare you of some very personal details, I am just going to say that my situation with my dad has been very rocky for my whole life and for reasons, I officially cut him out of my life right after my birthday this year. This was actually a very hard decision to make because it meant that I have no way of seeing my little brother and sister because I can’t meet them without seeing my dad (side note: I have told my little brother why I can’t see them and I still try to keep contact with both of them over Text, Facebook, and LINE).
My relationship with Taiji:
I discovered Seotaiji Boys in 2012 when I was 18, my first song was Blind Love (the english version of 난 아라요), but the song that got me hooked was 시대유감. the next year, I started listening to his solo work and fell in love with his 7th (Seotaiji 7th Issue) and 8th (Atimos) albums. After finding out that he met his current wife, Lee Eun-Sungthrough the filming of the sonf Bermuda [Triangle], I discovered that he was such an interesting person. The year after that, his wife had his first child and he released his 9th album, Quiet Night; At this point, I started watching every interview I could get my hands on just so I could learn more about how amazing this man was.
Last year was the boiling point where my dad completely ignored me and cut me out for half a year because he had “other priorities” (I’m just going to tell you, these priorities were drinking a whole case of beer and going out of his way to “get a piece” while completely neglecting his other 2 children). This was when I realized that Taiji has been around to help me through my moms divorce from my step father of 11 years and my father being wishy washy about divorcing my step mother of 17 years (these both happened in the same year).
How Taiji has helped me:
I never had a consistent father figure in my life to depend on, when I think I have one, something usually happens and they don't stay. After BbikBbok was born, I saw how much of an amazing father Taiji is; His attitude totally changes whenever he talks about her. Taiji is an amazing father. He is supportive, he's gone through so much in his life and he has it documented in his songs (such as Come Back Home, 소격동, and 90's icon to name a few), on top of all of that, he is completely understanding. Overall, Seo Taiji is the man I wish my father could be.
I guess what I’m trying to say without being too rambly, is that Seo Taiji kind of helped me fill the void that I had from not having a male/father figure in my life who I felt that I could depend on. The best part about Seo Taiji is that he is always there, wether it’s from my headphones or on a screen, or if I ever finally get to see him in concert, He will be there for as long as I need him and I thank him for that.