RULE #1 Challenge:
1: Make a card about something you've been struggling with or something that has stood in the way of your happiness before, is there something in Kpop that inspired you or has helped you through this? Share your story!
2: Comment on fellow Kpop Vingle fams story, give some advice and then relate their story to a Kpop song or idol it reminds you of!
Well lately, I haven't been in a good mood or having a good time. I love marching band. It's a passion of mine, but it just sucks.
I guess this started last year and I kind of hold a grudge, but I hope by talking about this and hearing some of your guys' advice might cheer me.
So here it goes...
Last year I ran for clarinet section leade. I was so excited. I've wanted this since my freshman year. I improved my marching and playing ability a lot for this. I had a lot of people cheering me on... or so at least I thought I did. I was insulted, downgraded, and betrayed. I had everything planned out for us. I was beyond ready for this. I've spent my time, my energy, and money for this program.
One the day they announced it, I went to the bathroom and started crying. I got home, called my friend, and bawled my eyes out. This was my dream. I had everything planned out. My senior year as section leader was going to be perfect and we were going to be a family.
that all changed when my junior friend betrayed me. She led me to believe that I would be good for the job then without telling me, she signed her name and ran against me... and she won.
This broke me so much and even thinking about it now. I hate it. How can you do that to someone? I actually considered her my friend.
Do you even want to know how the clarinet section is doing? It's horrible. We don't have good communication. We're not the family I wanted. We're not allowed to talk with each other. It's become a total dictatorship and I hate it. I wish I would've quit. That's how bad it is. Not to mention she has to be constantly asking the woodwind sergeant how to lead us. If she wanted this so badly, she should at least know how to do things herself. She's extremely strict and boring. She doesn't even ask for our opinions either and I hate that. She also doesn't let us have our phones out. I have to keep my phone out in case anything happens to my family, but she doesn't accept that excuse.
Everything is just going wrong and it makes me wish that I would've quit.
Writing this made me cry. It still hurts remembering all those people who didn't believe in me and their hurtful comments.
But when I hear my favorite idols or groups, I kind of let it go and let them influence me like always. K-Pop helps me to forget what I've heard and puts me at ease. Even though it still hurts, they help me forget the hurt I feel bit by bit.
Sorry this was so long. I just needed to let that out somewhere because if I tell a friend they'll just say I'm jealous that I didn't get section leader and I'm tired of hearing that