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RULE #1 Challenge: 1: Make a card about something you've been struggling with or something that has stood in the way of your happiness before, is there something in Kpop that inspired you or has helped you through this? Share your story! 2: Comment on fellow Kpop Vingle fams story, give some advice and then relate their story to a Kpop song or idol it reminds you of!
Well lately, I haven't been in a good mood or having a good time. I love marching band. It's a passion of mine, but it just sucks. I guess this started last year and I kind of hold a grudge, but I hope by talking about this and hearing some of your guys' advice might cheer me. So here it goes... Last year I ran for clarinet section leade. I was so excited. I've wanted this since my freshman year. I improved my marching and playing ability a lot for this. I had a lot of people cheering me on... or so at least I thought I did. I was insulted, downgraded, and betrayed. I had everything planned out for us. I was beyond ready for this. I've spent my time, my energy, and money for this program. One the day they announced it, I went to the bathroom and started crying. I got home, called my friend, and bawled my eyes out. This was my dream. I had everything planned out. My senior year as section leader was going to be perfect and we were going to be a family. But... that all changed when my junior friend betrayed me. She led me to believe that I would be good for the job then without telling me, she signed her name and ran against me... and she won. This broke me so much and even thinking about it now. I hate it. How can you do that to someone? I actually considered her my friend. Do you even want to know how the clarinet section is doing? It's horrible. We don't have good communication. We're not the family I wanted. We're not allowed to talk with each other. It's become a total dictatorship and I hate it. I wish I would've quit. That's how bad it is. Not to mention she has to be constantly asking the woodwind sergeant how to lead us. If she wanted this so badly, she should at least know how to do things herself. She's extremely strict and boring. She doesn't even ask for our opinions either and I hate that. She also doesn't let us have our phones out. I have to keep my phone out in case anything happens to my family, but she doesn't accept that excuse. Everything is just going wrong and it makes me wish that I would've quit. Writing this made me cry. It still hurts remembering all those people who didn't believe in me and their hurtful comments. But when I hear my favorite idols or groups, I kind of let it go and let them influence me like always. K-Pop helps me to forget what I've heard and puts me at ease. Even though it still hurts, they help me forget the hurt I feel bit by bit. Sorry this was so long. I just needed to let that out somewhere because if I tell a friend they'll just say I'm jealous that I didn't get section leader and I'm tired of hearing that
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@kimleekwonshin No problem at all dear!! I am glad I could make you feel better!! ♡♡ That's what I am here for!
I had a similar situation my senior year of high school in band. I ran for drum major and I still was a drum major but not the lead. everyone thought I was would get it and rooted for me but the other guy won. Of course he was not a good leader and he didn't have the right respect or attitude to lead the band. Sometimes the people who get into leadership positions are not the ones that should be there. But that doesn't mean you can be a leader and a role model in the band just cuz your not the section leader. Don't get discouraged by others too much!! This makes me think of DOPE by BTS, cuz you worked so hard while others aren't. Just keep your head up and try to make the best of it though it may not be easy xP Om glad Kpop helps you to stay happy ^^
@katiems I will definitely keep my head up high and listen to Dope! I will try and be gook. thanks!
Ugh that sounds horrible. I cant say I know exactly what that feels like, but I know how bad it feels to want something and then no get it and see the person who did get it not respect it. I'm glad that you're able to pull through and I'm sure your talent and efforts are being seen where it really matters. I'm glad you're pulling through it and hopefully it will somehow make you a stronger musician and person.
I know really well how you feel. I was a saxophone player in highschool and everyone knew from sophomore year that myself and one other guy were going to be the leaders our senior year. He had the music skills and I had the marching skills. It comes time for section leaders to be named and he got it but instead of he the director called on another girl. One who didn't even want it. Everyone was so confused and I was so mad but it was what it was. The section was good musically but because she was there they lacked the marching skills they needed.