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RULE #1 Challenge: 1: Make a card about something you've been struggling with or something that has stood in the way of your happiness before, is there something in Kpop that inspired you or has helped you through this? Share your story! 2: Comment on fellow Kpop Vingle fams story, give some advice and then relate their story to a Kpop song or idol it reminds you of!
Well lately, I haven't been in a good mood or having a good time. I love marching band. It's a passion of mine, but it just sucks. I guess this started last year and I kind of hold a grudge, but I hope by talking about this and hearing some of your guys' advice might cheer me. So here it goes... Last year I ran for clarinet section leade. I was so excited. I've wanted this since my freshman year. I improved my marching and playing ability a lot for this. I had a lot of people cheering me on... or so at least I thought I did. I was insulted, downgraded, and betrayed. I had everything planned out for us. I was beyond ready for this. I've spent my time, my energy, and money for this program. One the day they announced it, I went to the bathroom and started crying. I got home, called my friend, and bawled my eyes out. This was my dream. I had everything planned out. My senior year as section leader was going to be perfect and we were going to be a family. But... that all changed when my junior friend betrayed me. She led me to believe that I would be good for the job then without telling me, she signed her name and ran against me... and she won. This broke me so much and even thinking about it now. I hate it. How can you do that to someone? I actually considered her my friend. Do you even want to know how the clarinet section is doing? It's horrible. We don't have good communication. We're not the family I wanted. We're not allowed to talk with each other. It's become a total dictatorship and I hate it. I wish I would've quit. That's how bad it is. Not to mention she has to be constantly asking the woodwind sergeant how to lead us. If she wanted this so badly, she should at least know how to do things herself. She's extremely strict and boring. She doesn't even ask for our opinions either and I hate that. She also doesn't let us have our phones out. I have to keep my phone out in case anything happens to my family, but she doesn't accept that excuse. Everything is just going wrong and it makes me wish that I would've quit. Writing this made me cry. It still hurts remembering all those people who didn't believe in me and their hurtful comments. But when I hear my favorite idols or groups, I kind of let it go and let them influence me like always. K-Pop helps me to forget what I've heard and puts me at ease. Even though it still hurts, they help me forget the hurt I feel bit by bit. Sorry this was so long. I just needed to let that out somewhere because if I tell a friend they'll just say I'm jealous that I didn't get section leader and I'm tired of hearing that
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Ugh that sounds horrible. I cant say I know exactly what that feels like, but I know how bad it feels to want something and then no get it and see the person who did get it not respect it. I'm glad that you're able to pull through and I'm sure your talent and efforts are being seen where it really matters. I'm glad you're pulling through it and hopefully it will somehow make you a stronger musician and person.
I had a similar situation my senior year of high school in band. I ran for drum major and I still was a drum major but not the lead. everyone thought I was would get it and rooted for me but the other guy won. Of course he was not a good leader and he didn't have the right respect or attitude to lead the band. Sometimes the people who get into leadership positions are not the ones that should be there. But that doesn't mean you can be a leader and a role model in the band just cuz your not the section leader. Don't get discouraged by others too much!! This makes me think of DOPE by BTS, cuz you worked so hard while others aren't. Just keep your head up and try to make the best of it though it may not be easy xP Om glad Kpop helps you to stay happy ^^
@katiems I will definitely keep my head up high and listen to Dope! I will try and be gook. thanks!
@AimeeH thank you so much for your advice. I will try my best. Thank you so much again ♡ this made me feel a lot better
Hunnie, I am so sorry that happened to you. It hurts when someone you held so close betrays you like that. I can't say that I know exactly how you feel, because I have never been in band, but I can imagine from the way you wrote this that this meant the world for you. I agree that she should've thought it out, and she did that just to rub it in your face. One thing I do know is that ugly characters will get their dues in time. I am so glad that K-Pop helps you with this, and eases your mind. I know we don't know each other, but I can say that I and everyone here believes in you and we're rooting you on! Don't let people like that break your dreams. Never, ever let anyone break your dreams. I have had that happen to me, and it isn't a good pill to swallow. The best thing you can do is hold your head up and never give up. There have been many times when I have wanted to quit, but perseverance is the best thing anyone can have. Keep your chin up doll, no one can escape Karma!
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