I've been out of college for a year. I have had a few jobs, made the big move out of the parents house, and have started paying my own bills. And yet, after a year I still don't have my dream job, dream closet, or even my own car.
In fact, when I try to imagine who I will be in the future I cant even picture what I will be doing.
I didn't graduate knowing what I wanted to be for the rest of my life at 22 years old. I didn't get my dream job where I would climb up the ladder until CEO position. I didn't have to send out only one golden cover letter for all my dreams to be answered.
And I am finally okay what that.
Because in the past year alone I have learned that even though I hate children, I am awesome with them.
I have learned how to successfully change a diaper.
I have learned that I need to simmer down in office environments but I will be successful as a writer.
I have learned how to save money, cook creative things at home, and enjoy cheap dates.
And I have learned how to wake up early every day to go to a job I know I don't want and still be successful at my position.
And its only been my first year in adulthood.
No one can know what they want to be at 22. Sometimes people don't know what they want to be until they have already wasted decades at a job they "would grow to love."
It's time someone told you that it is ok to take your time. It is okay to have odd jobs and still go out on the weekends. It is ok to not jump straight into office drone mode or even become one at all.
Because the world is changing. There are jobs you can't even imagine on things not even created yet. And knowing exactly what you want to be at 22 can seriously interfere with an experience that can surprise a passion out of you that you had no idea even existed.
So you don't know what you want to be, who you are or what is next; have another drink and take a deep breath, you aren't alone and it is going to be alright.