So a few days ago, I was challenged by @B1A4BTS5ever and @katiems to create my rule #1 challenge. RULE #1 Challenge: 1: Make a card about something you've been struggling with or something that has stood in the way of your happiness before, is there something in Kpop that inspired you or has helped you through this? Share your story! 2: Comment on fellow Kpop Vingle fams story, give some advice and then relate their story to a Kpop song or idol it reminds you of!
I try not to let my personal life out there too much but I'm gonna share a story with you guys and be warned, its a little angst (more like a lot). So listen carefully ^^
Maybe about 6 or 7 years ago, I was 14/15. It was a time where I was transitioning from middle school to high school. Now, I come from a very conservative and strict family so I didn't have many friends growing up, if any, even if I grew up in a small town. So I began high school with no friends, a few acquaintances here and there but I didn't have a "group" I belonged in. Though this may seem normal to some of you, it really wasn't for me. During my first two years of high school, my family was going through a lot of traumatic events. My sister leaving our house in an uproar after she just graduated high school to live out on her own with her boyfriend at the time. Though this doesn't sound too bad, it caused a lot of tension between my sister, my mom and my aunt since my sister was a bit of the wild child during high school. There was that, along with my brother leaving to go live with my dad. Which basically left me all by myself go deal with the stress.
But back to high school. So, I began high school with no friends and the stress from home made my grades drop drastically, a lot of the kids I grew up and went to school with generally thought I was weird and antisocial which wasn't necessarily true since when I was little, I didn't speak much English so I couldn't talk to them even if I wanted to, I was picked on a lot as a kid. But due to all of this stuff happening, I began to get depressed. I could never do anything right in my mom's eyes, my sister cut all ties with my family and myself so I had no way of talking to her, my brother lived in east bumble fuck, I had no friends and a lot of the girls in my school didn't like me. I fell into a deep depression, almost to the point of suicide, but I knew better than to do that.
I knew I had to find some way to distract myself and to get me away from the reality I lived in even for just a few minutes. One day, there was a house party at the house of a family friend. The kids there weren't my actual cousins, but I grew up with them, so to me, they were my cousins. On that day, I think it was in 2008, my family had been one of the last of the friends to arrive to the party. As I was walking up the stairs to my cousin's room, I could hear loud, energetic music coming from her room. Walking in, I could see a few of my cousins dancing and singing. Playing was Big Bang's "La La La". When I asked them what they were listening to, they all urged me to sit down and watch a few music videos. Not knowing what I was getting myself into, I agreed. Surprisingly enough, I didn't like K-Pop at first. But as time passed, I found that whenever I felt sad or depressed, I'd found myself searching for the happiest K-Pop song I knew.
Halfway through my freshman year, I did end up making a friend, a few actually. Some of those friends became my best friends and are still my best friends 7 years later. I can never thank my cousin enough for helping me without her even knowing it. She not only helped me, K-Pop also helped me, I introduced a new culture to my friends, to my whole school actually, my sophomore year I actually had the guts to dance to a K-Pop song in my school's multicultural festival, and every year after that. K-Pop taught me to love myself the way I am and embrace it. Things are much better than they were at that time, my sister is together with my family again and I actually live with her now in Las Vegas ^^ my brother is back home as well, though he's still an asshole. I don't know where I'd be right now if it weren't for K-Pop, probably six feet under the ground actually. Not many people know this or understand it, but K-Pop really saved my life.
Whoa I'm glad that's over, but tell me how you relate in any way, and tag me in your cards so I can read your stories ^^ Have a great day everyone, I love you *blows kisses*