I was talking to @ChriSingularis, and he pointed out I haven't been posting as much romantic stuff lately. He's right, and I had to pause and ask myself why. Aren't I Vingle's self-proclaimed Ultimate Romantic and Princess of Lurv?
I guess I've been feeling a little more confused lately. I'm actually a bit frustrated with my love life at present. I want the romance, I want the hearts and flowers, but the person I want to be with is so far away. And until we can see each other and try this out for real, I'm stuck in this weird place, loveless and frozen, unable to move forward.
When you fall for someone, you should be able to see them and spend time with them and see if you work well together, right? Instead, all we can do is write letters, text, Skype now and then, and try not to talk about how badly we miss each other. It's better than nothing, of course, but it also makes me feel sad about how much more I want for our relationship, and how much more I can't have.
I never thought I would meet Prince Charming and then have to bide my time waiting for our royal schedules to converge. I always pictured that moment as something more triumphant, where the second you realize you two were meant to be, your whole life changes for the better. You spend time together, getting to know one another, sharing adventures and comfortable silence alike. You would never have to be apart again.
But life isn't like that. People have to live their lives. Being an adult makes things even more complicated, because suddenly, you're not on the same campus as everyone else anymore. Friends and loved ones scatter across the country – across the world, even. And if you really want something to work out, at some point, you've gotta be in the same geographical location. I'm sad that I don't know when I'll be in the same city as him. I'm sad I can't know what the future holds for us.
Anyway, that's a little of what's been on my mind. I'll try to resume my Princess of Lurv title in the meantime, and post some more heart-warming romantical thoughts for you all :) Because I do believe that things happen for a reason, and every challenge makes us a stronger person in the end! I know I need to keep up hope and focus on the positive, because you never know what life will bring you next :)