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Okay, fine, I'll admit it: I love this song.

The song that's playing pretty much everywhere right now, "Can't Feel My Face" by The Weeknd – I just can't it out of my head. And not in a bad way (Not yet, at least. Let me hear a few dozen more times and see what happens).
Maybe it's the catchy songwriting, or this killer video (those dance moves!), or maybe it's the face that it's a "love song" that's a bit different from what the kids are used to.

I can't feel my face when I'm with you

But I love it, but I love it

This song is not about love, kids. It's about drugs.
I'm going to step out and say this song is about being in love with cocaine – and all the highs and lows that come with addiction.

She told me, "Don't worry about it,"

She told me, "Don't worry no more,"

We both know we can't go without it,

She told me you'll never be alone, oh oh ooh

It's all about how drugs can fill that hole in your chest, if only for a little while.
I guess drugs are kind of on my mind lately as I prepare to quit smoking. (Cigarettes, that is. I don't mess with anything other than nicotine and coffee. Don't do drugs and stay in school, kids!!)
Quitting has been on the calendar for some time now – I chose a big moment in my life, a concrete transition to mark the "this is my last cigarette" moment. November 24th. After that, no more cigarettes for me.
I'm really nervous, though. I know I can do it – but at the same time, I know it's going to suck. I love my drug; the attachment is almost romantic. And that's why, I guess, I can't help but think when I hear this song – when I quit, how badly am I going to miss it?
You're very welcome! I have no doubt you can do this! <3 @Allischaaff
These are all great tips @Danse, thank you <3 :) the toothpicks are an excellent idea, because I know I'm going to crave that after-meal smoke so badly... I guess I'll chew a lot of gum lol. I've heard that's a good way to avoid weight gain too. I'm mostly worried about the anxiety and irritability... like I'm the kind of person who gets really "hangry" when I haven't eaten recently. And I've already experienced a bit of the anxiety and panic that accompanies the feeling of wanting a cigarette so badly but not being able to have one for whatever reason (like during air travel, things like that). Ugh. It's going to be a hard couple of weeks. But I want to try using some deep breathing techniques for stress - just leaving the room, finding a quiet place or going outside, and taking some deep breaths (using the 4-7-8 pattern, if you've heard of that?) to clear my head. And toothpicks sound like a great idea because unlike gum they give you that feeling of something between your lips. Again, I'm just happy to hear from somebody that it's possible :) thanks so much for the support <3
Something that really helped me was buying things to keep in my mouth. Like for example I bought a TON of flavored tooth picks. Those were HUGE lifesavers for times when I was driving, or after I ate and I wanted that after meal smoke. Having that flavoring was great. I even flavored my own with things like chocolate, mint, bubblegum, cherry. They're super easy to make. Though you can just go online and order boxes of them for pretty cheap. @Allischaaff
The hardest part for me was handling stress. When I was stressed, I smoked. So when I didn't have that habit to lean on I didn't know how to handle my mood swings. I snapped at a lot of people. I felt like a complete jerk.. :[ .... But luckily they understood the situation and let it slide. I had to find other ways to calm down; it was really difficult. [I also have insomnia - so being awake a lot doesn't help the cravings much.] Another thing that was hard was Eating. I eat a LOT to begin with, so when I quit I could not stop shoving food in my face. I think part of this was that oral fixation I mentioned. The need to have something in my mouth or between my lips. I've heard a lot of smokers gain weight after they quit; which I can't say is true or not. I didn't really gain much at all. The hardest period for me, was about the second week in. I was extremely high-strung and anxious. I'm not usually like that at all unless I'm in a very crowded place. *thinks* I stayed away from people who smoked for about the first month, then slowly started hanging out with them again. Takes time, but I could really tell the difference. Your sense of smell is so much better, your sense of taste. (Though smoking damaged all that, so it'll never be the same sadly.) @Allischaaff But this was me. I can't really say what you'll feel. o.O
Wow, thanks so much @Danse :) It really encourages me to hear your story, especially because – WOW – 17 years!! I've only been smoking for 2, so it should be easier for me right?? Right??? Lol. Well, even though I know it's going to be hard, luckily I have people like you and my parents and friends who all applaud the decision to quit and will be there to support me every step of the way. Thanks for taking the time to read my card and comment :) did you get any kind of withdrawal symptoms? What would you say was the hardest part/time period of quitting? If you don't mind me asking, of course :)
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