I was looking around on Youtube recently and i found this video about sleep paralysis. It is a medical term but this girl strongly believes that it is a spiritual attack. Check out this video to hear her personal experience and testimony. It is both horrifying and wonderful because it has a good ending. In my next card, i will tell about my own experience with sleep paralysis as well as some other strange and paranormal things that were happening to me during the same time period. You may or may not be a believer in God, but i wouldn't want to experience something like this without faith in some one greater than myself.
@MelissaMae I'm sorry it took me so long to respond. I have so many issues answering that last question. So I'll be blunt.
First, thank you for condolences. It is, by far, the hardest thing I've ever dealt with, especially considering our son wasn't even two years old yet. (My husband was killed exactly a month before our son's birthday.) It's something I'd never wish on another soul.
Ok, so. Yes. I am a Christian. But I'm not standing firm there.i guess I'm the rocky soil right now. Full of thorns. At one point, I was firm and strong. Now, it feels like I have such a huge ball of anger inside that I'm still trying to unravel. I will never, ever understand why I had to lose my best friend and lover. The pain never stops. The doubts never stop. The feeling that I'm forever lost never stops.
My son goes to a nondenominational church with family and friends, so I go for him sometimes. I want him to have the freedom to choose what he believes. So I will forever support him. I love him dearly and worry over his little soul more than my own, I know.
It's just so freaking hard, Melissa...
@ButterflyBlu i truly feel for you. im very sorry. 😢😢 no one very close to me has ever died but yet the feelimjgs you describe are the same as mine. i feel as if the man i loved was murdered and replaced with a monster and ill never find him again. the sense of loss is great. though i know that it is not the same, i do know a great sense of loss and i still greive. i also have so much anger that is unresolved and i no longer have a relationship with god because of it. it seems like you and i are sort of in the same place for different reasons. im always here if you want to talk to someone. hugs