No that makes it worse just be you. It's OK to be different form everyone else. And trust me you'll feel a lot better to be yourself it take a load off of your shoulders. Dont try to rush it, one day that one person you're waiting for will come around. And yeah mistakes hurt but they make us who we are (they don't define us though) and hopefully we learn from them. And if people leave and they aren't enemies, I'll be blunt, this might hurt, but they probably haven't cared for you.
I'll always be here 😖 count on me for advice (says the rook who has no experience in dating whatsoever xD)