I understand now
that you didn't ask for it.
Didn't understand why I rested on your chest
ears tilted to the sound of your heartbeat
convincing myself I heard each steady beat
skip.
You didn't ask for it.
Didn't beg me to come over.
Stayed ignorant as I kissed your lips
like a starved animal
sucking in each
breath, stealing and sealing it
You became the one thing keeping me alive,
crooked smiles the only rhythm
pumping my already flatlined heart
like my body already realized what my mind didn't.
You didn't ask for that.
But after telling you "I love you"
and every kiss you gave me after;
I asked for it and you delivered.
And that is your fault.
But as for our, I'm sorry,
MY love,
I understand now,
It is as unrequited as this
apology.