I was tagged in a card by @KatieRussell who was talking about how BigBang helped her this year. She asked at the end what kpop bands helped us this year. Instead of this year, I decided it was time to share how kpop has helped my life in definitely. I have never shared my life changing kpop story so why not now? The holidays are here and I want to share how thankful I am to these particular bands.
I've been listening to kpop since 2009 (my gandhi it's been almost 7 years!) I listened to many bands SHINee, 2ne1, BigBang, Super Junior. However I wasn't the super fan that I am today. I listened to the music and knew the names of some of the members (well except 2ne1 those girls are forever my queens) but that was the extent of my love for kpop for a long time.
At the end of 2013 and beginning of 2014 I had gone thought so much pain, heartbreak, and abuse (that's a story for another time) through the past few years that I fell into a deep depression. This depression wasn't like one I've ever experienced. I suffer from seasonal depression, but this depression was different. I was numb, I felt nothing, the only emotion I felt was anger. I was angry at the world and everyone in it.
It was March when BigBang specifically T.O.P saved my life. I was laying in bed watching random interviews on YouTube. That's when I came across BigBang's strong heart interview; the one during their fantastic baby days. I remember the MC asking what Bingu meant. Did TOP answer that question? Well sort of, if you previously understood what that meant. I however had no idea. So this led me to look up Bingu TOP. I found many compilations of his silly moments. That night was the first time in months that I laughed.
The fact that TOP's stage presence is super serious and he still has fun and jokes around off stage resonated with me. TOP is dedicated to his music, image, and acting. Yet he still acts childish and loves toys was a fresh of breath air. TOP pulled me out of my initial funk. That night I laughed and I cried; something I desperately needed to do.
Along with G-Dragon's song Crooked (to this day I still listen to this when I'm depressed) and finding the beautiful boys that are Block B; I was pulled out of depression. I still have my depressing days but because of the wonderful world of kpop I no longer feel like dying or disappearing. This year I added the Boys of BTS to the list of people who instantly pick me up.
So I would like to thank BigBang and Block B for saving my life. And BTS and the rest for keeping me happy. I hope everyone here in the Vingle kpop family has wonderful holidays filled with joy, (j) hope, and love. Sarang hae ♡♡♡♡♡