"Go after him!" "I can't, I'm a coward remember? I can't go up to him and just say, 'Hi.' I can't even look at him without feeling my heart go as fast as a horse on steroids. I even write stupid little love letters and pretend to be his 'secret admirer' because I'm too scared to even tell him face to face how I feel. For gods sakes. I even dream about him! I sound obsessed, Oh my God." I sigh as I looked at my friend. "Girl, you have to do something to get your mind off of him, Okay? Stressing over guys is not going to help." She said. "I know it doesn't, but this is the first guy I ever stress over." "I know but I think you should confess to him. Who knows, maybe he likes you back?" "Hahaha. No." She rolled her eyes and looked to the front leaving me with my thoughts. Oh Yoongi. Look what you're doing to me. After School~ I looked back and forth making sure no one was around. When I made the sure the coast was clear, I made my way towards his backpack. Not to sound creepy, but I've been leaving him letters to at least let him know that secret admirers still exist. Anyways, I'm too much of a coward to really let him know who I am. I looked for his backpack and found it right in the middle of the shelf. I grinned to myself and carefully placed the note inside the pouches on the side of the backpack. I got up and instantly hit something with my head. I stumbled forward but didn't fall. I held the back of my head and looked behind to whatever I hit. I felt my face drain of color and my blood run cold. There clutching his nose, was Yoongi. I opened my mouth to say something, but words wouldn't come out. He looked at me with eyes just as wide as mine. Without thinking, I moved closer to him and removed his cold hands from his face. I looked around his nose and made sure that nothing happened to him. I came back to my senses when I realized that I was touching his face. My hands dropped to my sides and I looked at the floor too ashamed to look at him. Before I knew it, he burst out laughing and I looked up at him seeing him clutching his stomach. I looked up at him with a confused look on my face. He looked down at me, after calming down a bit and he walked closer to me. My breath hitched as I felt his breath on my forehead. When did he get so tall? He reached out behind me and retreated his hand, but he was holding a small paper. My eyes grew wide as I saw my handwriting. I opened my mouth, but nothing would come out. "What is this? Hmm?" he said with a smirk. 'Oh poop. I'm screwed.' I thought. I looked down again, the floor suddenly looks so interesting today. "I had a nightmare today"-- he read. "It wasn't of monsters or broken things. It wasn't the beauty turning disgusting and suddenly turning destructive. Oh I wish it was that instead. I had a nightmare today and you were in it. It was of me walking with my head held high walking towards your figure. My heart beating pleasurably in my ears. My smile visible and one could tell I was happy. I look down at the roses in my hands that remind me of you, Beautiful and Pure." He stops and I feel his eyes looking at me, I say nothing and keep my attention to the floor. He continues again, "I look back up and I see that another girl has taken your side. You're both looking at each other happily-" I look up at him to see his reaction. His face is twisted with slight confusion. "Her tulips are prettier, Her dress is brighter, Her hair is longer, and her eyes.. a perfect mixture of green and gray. You walk towards me, and finally take notice of my presence. With a friendly smile and intertwined hands, you walk right past me.-" His face showing slightly showing signs of anger- "I look back at your fading figure and look forward again. My head now lowered, my tears threaten to fall. My heart beat is still there but no longer for pleasure. My smile now a bitter one. These roses feel heavy as they turned an ominous color. I loose my footing and fall to the floor. Sob. Choke. Repeat. I realized that love is beautiful, but from afar to those like me." He stopped reading and looked at me. His face showing anger and confusion. I looked down again and fumbled with my fingers. Yoongis' feet came into view as he stepped forward. He grabbed my chin and made me look at him. Before I even had time to say anything, he leaned in and his lips met mine. My eyes widened but closed soon after. Our lips moved in sync as he lowered his hands to my waist and pulled me closer. My arms went up to his neck as we kissed even deeper. We parted due to lack of air, but out bodies didn't move. Only the sound of panting could be heard throughout the room. With foreheads together, our eyes never leaving each others. My mind is racing with all the thoughts as to why he would kiss me. He was the first to break the silence, "How.. How could you think I wouldn't feel the same way?" He asked. "I was scared. I just.. there's better people in your life. I thought that you might like them an-" "I don't like any of those girls. They're all just friends and nothing more. I.. I uh.." He looked away and his cheeks tinted with pink. "You what?" I asked, tilting my head to the side trying to look at his eyes. He looked at me and said, "Don't do that." I looked at him confusedly, "Do what?" I asked. He took a deep breathe and tightened his grip around my waist as he brought his face closer to my neck. I shivered as I felt his hot breath against my neck. If I wasn't in his arms, I would've fallen to the floor already. His lips made contact and I instantly forgot how to breathe. My body felt hot and my mind went black. "Remember when in one of your letters you said, 'I fell for you the first time we made eye contact because you were able to see what kind of person I am'?" I couldn't say anything so I just nodded. He lifted his head and looked into my eyes. "I fell for you when we made eye contact because... you smiled at me. That smile that makes anyone go crazy, and I was the one that went crazy. I'm crazy for you." He leaned in once more, his eyes closing and I close mine as well. Our lips barely touching and he whispered, "I love you." I smiled and said, "I love you too." Our lips touched fully and I felt the electricity once more. I realized that for someone like me, love doesn't have to be from afar because I fell for the person that I know I was meant to be with as cheesy as it sounds.
I love you Min Yoongi.
I want to apologize for my inactivity, at first the vingle app didn't let me post so I had to remove the app from my phone, when I did that, I tried to add the app again but it wouldn't download. Finally today, it finally worked and now I'm back! Once again though, I'm sorry for the delay.