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EXO Imagine [Kim Junmyeon] (4/12)

WARNING This has mature content and violence. Don't complain that I didn't warn you or tell me that I should not have added that. Thank you. Read at your own consent. He looked at me as I looked away, "Why do you do this?" He asked. I looked down at my cup and smirked. "I'm not someone who likes to be figured out. If that's what you're trying to do, you can leave. I don't like revealing things from myself and if you can't unders-" He cut me off, "I understand. Its just that I feel worthless. I can't comfort you when you're sad, I can't make you happy, I can't do anything! All because I don't know anything about you! Do you realize how hard it is for me to understand you?" I looked away from the cup and met his chocolate eyes. "No one is telling you to be here. Maybe I don't want to be understood. Maybe I want to remain a mystery even to you. I don't like the fact that this is how you feel, because it hurts, but I'm not about to answer your questions just like that. Its not me. Maybe one day, I'll come crying to you and tell you everything. Either that or I'll still be independent of myself." "Why, Why can't you depend on me like I depend on you?" I got off my from chair and walked towards the huge window and looked out into the city. It was near midnight so not many cars were out. The sky twinkling with stars, the scenery keeping me calm. Without looking at him I said, "Lets just say I learned my lesson after a certain incident." I smirked again, but this time it was forced. I looked back at Suho and said, "I'm never swooping down low as to depend on another human. Yes, it's hard sometimes but I realized that being alone is something that makes me content. You may not understand it, but them again you don't have to. No one is forcing you to stay either." His jaw clenched and he stood up and walked towards me, his eyes never leaving mine. Once in front of me he opened his mouth and said, "Mysteries have a solution. I will figure yours out." He sighed and pulled me into half a hug. His left arm around my waist and his right arm went up to my face and he slid a finger down my jaw line to my chin. I stood still, not really knowing what to do, so I kept my arms at my side. I regained my composure and said, "You'll probably give up on me. You're already frustrated as it is. A mystery that can be solved, Huh? Let me tell you this.-" I leaned closer to his year- "Some mysteries are meant to be left alone, for they bring great pain and unexpected surprises." I pressed my lips to his jaw and removed his arm from my back and walked out the door. I sighed. Just a little bit longer.. I thought to myself. I walked home trying to shake off the feelings I was getting. Every time I reject him, he comes back. I can't understand why he would do this. He should have given up a long time just like all the others. Why hasn't he given up? Why does he try so hard only to get heartbroken again and again? Why... do I keep playing with him? I feel like I can't let him go, but at the same time I know that one day, he'll wake up and realize that he no longer wants to pursue me. I kicked a can and looked up at the sky and saw the stars. I breathe in the cool air and think, letting myself free of all thoughts. ~~~ Sobbing. That's all anyone would hear if they heard. Tear after tear, choke after choke and more, and more sobbing. I looked at the broken mirror, my fists stained red like the color of my dress. My hair sticking to the sides of my face, and I gasped for air. I saw my reflection from one of the shattered pieces and saw the mascara and eyeliner running down my face. I looked like a beautiful nightmare. The one where you want to wake up, but at the same time you don't, just out curiosity to know what happens next. I looked around and saw the many empty bottles around myself. At this moment, I didn't exist. I laid my head on the floor and just cried some more in trying to forget everything that happened earlier. (Flashbacks are in bold) "Hey, Y/N?" John said as he looked at me. "Yeah?" I answered. "I want to take you out somewhere fancy tomorrow, mostly because we haven't hung out in a while. So, would you like to go?" He asked with a small smile, I looked closer and saw that his cheeks were tainted with a pinkish color. "Sure, I'd love to. Around what time?" "Around 8. I'll pick you up. Okay?" "Okay" Am I not enough? Hah. what even happened to him? The tears stopped, but my heart is still in pain. Someone was knocking on the door. "Y/N! I'm here!" "I'm going!" I went over to unlock the door, and John was standing there looking quiet nice. "Are you ready?" He asked. "Yeah, I just need to get something come inside." I stepped aside and he made his way inside. I walked towards the restroom and looked for earrings to go with my dress. "Y/N, Come." John called. I went to him and he showed me my phone, "Who's Suho?" I smirked, "We're not even together, and you're acting jealous. If it helps, he's my friend." I turned to walk off- The tears started coming out again. I felt him behind me and before I could ask him what he was doing he grabbed me by my hair and yanked me back. I screamed as I landed against the the floor. John took the time to crawl over me and looked me in the eyes, "You're mine and only mine. Got it?" "No! Get the fuck off of me! Please!" I said. I felt my heart get heavier as I looked at the shattered pieces of the mirror. Tears coming uncontrollably and once again I began to sob. He smirked and moved his face closer to my collar bone and trailed wet kisses around the area. I tried pushing him away, but I couldn't do much. He grinned as he saw my struggle. "Hush now, you'll be alright." He said as he moved his head up and attached his lips to mine. I opened my mouth slightly and bit as hard as I could on his bottom lip. He got up and held his bleeding lip. I kicked his part and he went backwards in pain. I got up and tried to get away but he managed to grab my leg and I screamed telling him to let me go. I fell and crashed into the night stand. I saw that it was falling forward and immediately moved out of the way. As it fell The drawer opened and out came a gun. Someone is knocking on the door. I don't have the strength or eagerness to open the door. I feel my consciousness slipping away. I tried reaching out for it, but John pulled me back. I turned and tried to claw at his face as his hands when around my throat. I clawed more and managed to move my feet to his stomach and with a big shove, I pushed him away. I gasped for air and moved back. I touched the cold metal of the gun and grabbed it as I aimed it at John. My hands were shaking uncontrollably and my voice wasn't with me, "G-get O-out! Please!" I managed to say. He looked at me as if challenging me that I wouldn't do it. I don't know where my confidence came from, but I aimed it next to his head and shot. His eyes widened as now he knew that I was serious. My confidence lasted longer than I expected, "You know the quote, 'When one holds a gun, you either teach or you kill' You deserve to die. But then again, I'm not going to kill you. I'm just going to tell you to leave. I hope this teaches you to never mess with a woman again." He got up and stumbled towards me. "You might have shot next To me, but you can never shoot me." "Get away! Please! Leave! Don't make me do anything I don't want to." I yelled. He was now closer than ever. I aimed the gun at his left leg and shot. His screams and curses could be heard throughout the house. The door opened and I heard a gasp. I heard shuffling around and I felt myself being carried but I couldn't open my eyes. "I told you. Next is a shot to the head. Leave now. The hospital is just a few blocks down. Have fun explaining why you got shot." He clutched his leg and somehow made it out of the house. After he left, I walked towards the mirror to see the still hand marks around my neck. I punched the mirror and then moved back and fell on the floor. I woke up and looked around my surroundings. It seems to be morning as the sun could be seen through the dark curtains. I heard a knock on my door and it opened, They turned on the light and I have to adjust to it. My eyes came into focus and I saw Suho standing there. I don't know whether to slap him because how did he get in my house, or hug him because of what happened. "What are you doing here?" My voice was hoarse and my head hurts. "I came yesterday, what happened? By the way, I made breakfast." He showed me the platter of different foods. I told him everything and I started crying again as he took me in his arms. "Shh, it's alright. I'm here now, okay?" His hands did circular motions on my back and I immediately relaxed. After a while, the feeling of guilt began to set in and I pushed Suho away. I looked down at my hands as I felt his stare. "Please leave. I can't do this anymore." I said. "I know you need me, so I'm not going anywhere. I'm staying here by your side. You're my angel and I care so much for you." He said. "I don't want to hurt you anymore. Why don't you understand!? I didn't fall from the sky. All this time I've been hurting you, lying to you. That's all I am, Pain and lies. I'm not the person you thought I was! I can't live with myself knowing this. Please leave. However, even though I'm telling you to leave, I don't want to lose you." A bitter chuckle came out from my lips. He embraced me and I tried pushing him away. "I should've left a long time ago. I should've given up. However, I can't do that. I don't want to do that. I can't walk away knowing that you're doing this to yourself. I'm in love with you, and I know you love me too. No matter how many times you tell me to leave, I'm staying here." "Suho.." He moved his hands on either side of my face. "M-May I?" He stuttered as he looked at my eyes and then my lips. I giggled at him and I nodded. He smiled and his face came closer. Our lips touched and my stomach felt like the fireworks on New Years.
TADA~ This one, not going to lie, I cried while writing. I hope you guys enjoyed it~ Comment your thoughts please? I was wondering... should I do an instagram where I do these? Of course they're going to be different, but I've been wondering if I should do this. One more thing, those of you that I tag, I'd really like to know of you still read these. Sometimes I feel like I'm writing and you're not reading. Selfish I know, but I'm curious. Please comment and I'll know! If you want to be tagged on the next ones, let me know! Tags; @saraortiz2002 @amandamuska @Stefany17 @KellyOConnor @MadAndrea @punkpandabear @kmeier230 @JasmineWilliams @AimeeH @CrystalBlunt @VeronicaArtino @Mikim000 @MeghanJorgina @Allyson3333 @SarahVanDorn @DOislifeExoL @TesneemElAlami @DanaMichelle @zzzdonk @tiffany1922 @KpopQueenaBee @bbyitskatie
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I just found this and I'm so glad. This was so well written. Probably one of the best ones I've seen on this app. Can you please add me to the tag list? These are outstanding!!!
oh the feels ><
@thePinkPrincess I did too T-T
If the part where she gets violated becomes a movie I would totally watch it 😆
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He never hated a woman enough to want to put his hands on them and it baffled him that her own flesh and blood could do that. It made him recoil in his head when he realized what he'd done to her just a week ago, purposely bumping into her. It was unnecessary. He could've triggered things in her the way he was triggered by his past. Actually, if he was thinking about it hard enough, he was perfectly aware of the fact that there were people out there that came from dysfunctional families. Families with issues, pain, abuse. After all, his own father was planning on killing him. Junmyeon sat Y/N down on his couch and he brought the cat out in her cage. She took her out and sat her on her lap while Junmyeon retrieved the beers from the kitchen. She looked up at him seeing the beers and smiled softly. He sat down next to her and said, "What?" "I didn't think you were serious about the beers." "Oh I never joke about beer." He smiled big at her and opened her bottle then handed it too her. He didn't know if she was a beer drinker or not but when he saw her take that first gulp he could tell that it was hitting her just right. She wanted to forget what happened tonight. She may not be a drinker but she needed the drink. "Slow down a little. I need to catch up" he said. "I have a feeling your temperament is better than mine when under the influence." "Have you ever been drunk before?" He asked. "A few times. Some times weren't as bad as others." She said. She sighed and relaxed deeper into the couch. He watched her hand pet her cat while she drank from her beer with the other. Junmyeon joined in and sat in the silence with her. He wasn't sure what to talk to her about. He doubted she'd want to discuss what just happened at her place. He wanted to kick himself for not noticing that she was afraid earlier. He was upset at himself for not reacting fast enough, the shock just took over his body. Before he knew it, he had finished his beer and when he looked over at her, she'd finished before him. She was touching her face where she was hit, he could tell from the look in her eyes she was reliving it. "I think we're going to need something stronger than beer." He said as he got up. She reached out for him and said, "We didn't eat much, drinking too much could cause a lot of problems." "I'll order out, although, your food tastes way better than take out. I may have to start dropping by during dinner. " She rolled her eyes but she didn't say no. Even though he was just joking, he was tempted to try anyway. After all, they still had a project to work on, maybe they would end up eating together anyway. He shook his head as he grabbed the bottle of apple soju out of the refrigerator and grabbed the shot glasses. He ordered take out from an app on his phone and poured the shots for him and her. She was quick to throw the shot back leaving Junmyeon wide eyed. "You're a better drinker than most girls I know." He laughed. "I've had my practice, believe me." She wiped the side of her mouth with her wrist then pushed the shot glass over to him. Junmyeon looked at her with a cocked eye. He took his shot before he poured her one and then refilled both of their cups. By the time she finished that shot, she was fanning herself. Junmyeon laughed, "You're hot already?" "Hey, alcohol tends to spike up my temperature. You're telling me you're not hot?" He shook his head, "I don't feel it yet." "You will." He laughed as he stood up to go and lower the temperature in the room. Her body temperature would only rise and his would too as he drank. He figured this trick out a long time ago. The more he drank, the hotter he got and the more clothes he'd strip off. He then found himself under a blanket in his room freezing in the morning. It kept him comfortable while he drank, it was the waking up part that was a bitch. The doorbell rang and he answered it to get the food. He watched as she slipped her cat back into the cage and whispered to her, "Be good Lady." She was calmer but she was tipsy he could tell. She started pouring another shot and Junmyeon hurried over to stop her from drinking it. "Hold on you lush. Let's get some food in you first. You know, to absorb that." She chuckled but placed her hand on her face like she was embarrassed. Anguish washed over her face for a second and she started to pick at the containers that held her food. Junmyeon took a moment to get himself settled. He started wondering if bringing alcohol in the mix was a wise decision. She suddenly looked over at him and said, "Why did you help me?" "You can't think I'm that heartless can you? Any decent person would step in." "I didn't know you had one." she smirked. She went ahead and took another shot. The alcohol was getting to her more now than before. He could see a glaze over her eyes like she wasn't really there. She blinked hard, something he recognized in other women he drank with. She had a few shots and a beer, she wasn't a light weight but she didn't seem to have a very high tolerance either. She covered her mouth and burped or hiccuped, maybe both, he wasn't entirely sure. She giggled though and said, "You didn't have to bring me here though. You didn't have to- be nice... So why did you?" She asked. "Well I couldn't just leave you there like that. What's the deal with your father anyway? He's- well he's abusive, why are you putting up with it?" He asked. "Oh that's a boring story. Someone like you wouldn't care to hear it." She said it sarcastically but Junmyeon knew that was really how she felt about him. She relaxed deeper into the couch with her eyes closing; she smiled even though it was clear to him that she was hurting. He regretted ever giving her a hard time. He clearly knew nothing about her and even if she did get on his nerves sometimes, he wasn't okay with seeing her submit to her father like that. She was tough around everyone else, why couldn't she stand up to him? Why wouldn't she? Junmyeon was seven when everything with his family happened. He hated his father now, the rage that grew in him towards that man only built the older he got. He was sure if his father was still alive he would rage against him so much so that he'd kill him almost on sight. Y/N held her own against everyone else though. Why just her father? It was a mystery he didn't want to wait to find out, as long as she was drunk she might be more willing to tell him. "What makes you think I don't want to hear it?" He asked her. Her eyes opened up and she turned her head to look at him. She twisted her lips in an odd fashion and then bit the corner for a second. She then sat up poured herself one more shot and threw it back. Junmyeon looked at her oddly, she really needed another shot to tell the story? How bad was this story? "Hey, I'm not that pathetic, I just don't actually want to remember this evening in the morning." She said. She fixed herself on the couch to face him more and said, "Okay, so my sad little story begins... not so sad actually. My father used to be really gentle with me, he was a good guy. In a lot of ways, he was just a normal papa." "So what changed?" She released a heavy sigh. "My mother did actually." She stopped for a moment, there was a half smile on her face but her eyes did that gaze like she was zoning out. Her mind was still there but she was staring 40 yards ahead of her. She wasn't looking at Junmyeon she was just...staring at space. Or perhaps the memories that were playing in her mind like a movie. He knew how that felt. "When I was ten, my mother walked out on us. We never got a reason why. My dad has bipolar disorder so when she left him, he flew off the handle in a very big way. He wasn't consistent with taking his medications anymore. At some point, I think he just stopped so his moods were always erratic; he would be in a euphoria one moment then a month later he'd be angry or depressed. He threw everything out that belonged to her. He burned the sheets they shared and destroyed the furniture she picked out. He even threw out items she bought me. I loved my papa so much that if he was that angry at my mom then it made sense for me to be that angry at her too. So, I didn't really care that he threw that stuff out. He got rid of almost half my wardrobe though, it took him almost two months to replace the ones he threw away." "When did he become abusive?" Junmyeon asked. She looked up at him like she was hurt he was calling her father's actions abusive. He could also see on her face that she knew she couldn't argue that he was abusive. She said, "Almost immediately...My father loved my mother very much and when she left us without a warning it put him in a bad place. She was his reason for being, she accepted him so when she left him without a reason it destroyed him. I did my best to not need her, to not whine but I missed her. I was angry at her for all the pain she put us through but I really wanted my mother. That was a trigger enough for him to get angry. I cried for my mom and he just went off. He screamed and threw things at me and then he hit me. He came to apologize to me and begged me to keep it a secret. He told me that he couldn't lose me too. Someone would take me away from him and he would die without me." "Y/N that's manipulation and it's dangerous." Junmyeon said concerned. She looked up at him with tears resurfacing and brimming her eyes. She swallowed hard as a tear escaped and ran down her cheek. "I look like my mom," She confessed. "It took me a while to realize that's what he hated about me the most. He didn't want me to be like her. He wanted to remold me. It's so confusing and so fucked up because-" she sniffled and wiped her tears but more ran down to replace them "I lived with someone that loved and hated me at the same time. So when he flew in a rage...even if it wasn't because of something I did, I was the target. I don't know what was worse, when I was the one that screwed up or when it happened for no reason." "I don't understand, why do you keep letting him into your house?" She gave a weak smile. Her eyes looked like a water falland red blush rand from cheek to cheek across the bridge of her nose. "He's my father." She said. That didn't seem like a good enough reason to him but to her it made sense. It was clear she was struggling with her feelings for him as well. She loved him and probably hated him too. Junmyeon wouldn't blame her for hating him. However, he didn't think she should keep allowing herself to be subjected to that kind of abuse. He saw how quickly her father reacted just because she mentioned her mother he couldn't imagine the beatings he gave her years before. He felt sick to his stomach but she chuckled clearly drunk. Her breathing skipped and hitched like a child that had been crying furiously and was told to calm down or face a harsher punishment. Her hands worked to clear he face like it was important for her to not show such a weak side of herself. "Did no one else know about this?" Junmyeon asked. "Minseok did." He shouldn't have been surprised by that but he was. He didn't see Minseok staying quiet while something like that happened to her. He was annoyingly protective of her. Now that he realized that, maybe that's why he was asking him to be kind to her while they worked on their project together. She always seemed like the type of girl with a normal up bringing. She was a good student, she had her friends and she didn't seem to have any problems. When she suggested doing their project on depression he assumed it was because of what Minseok went through, maybe it was or maybe it was also connected to her. When she mentioned PTSD connecting to depression, all he could focus on was his trauma. He never would've suspected that she knew what real trauma was. She was a full grown adult and she was still being abused by her father because her father hated her mother. To Junmyeon, it seemed like he hated her too. When Junmyeon spoke with Y/N's father, he didn't seem like the warm welcoming father he expected her to have. He thought that had more to do with his comments to her when he arrived than it did with her father. As they talked, he asked questions about how well they knew each other and how she behaved in her classes. Her father was using Junmyeon as an informant almost as if he was hoping to catch her in a lie later. He was annoyed with her for getting a B but to Junmyeon that didn't make sense. It seemed like he just wanted a reason to go off. Though her father may actually have bipolar disorder, Junmyeon was sure he was treating Y/N that way of his own sound mind. It wasn't his disorder that made him this wicked towards her it was his own hatred of her mother, the person she looked like, the root of his pain and the one he actually hated, that made him treat her that way. It occurred to Junmyeon that perhaps her father couldn't separate the two of them. When he saw Y/N, it was possible all he was saw his estranged wife despite knowing she was his daughter. The face that kept looking back at him with big sad eyes, almost like an injured puppy belonged to his daughter but triggered his hate for his former wife. It was up to her father to recognize that he was the problem not Y/N. Junmyeon was starting to understand a little bit that Y/N was desperate to have a parent. She loved her father so she convinced herself to make allowances for his behavior. She blamed his disorder and kept up the role as the daughter that did her best to make her father proud. "That's why he doesn't like Minseok," She said. "I guess he always figured he'd tell someone what he was doing and then I'd be taken away." "And then he couldn't beat on you any more." "Myeon." She sighed. "No, Y/N that's not okay don't let it be okay. He may be your father but he knows what he's doing and he's doing it on purpose." Junmyeon came closer to her and cupped her face. He made her look him in the eye, "He knows he has control over you. That's why he's does this. If you keep letting him do this he might kill you, do you understand? " "No, he won't. He wouldn't." "He may not on purpose but he could hit you and you could fall the wrong way and die. No one should be putting their hands on you. No one." "No, he always apologizes," She was starting to slur her words but tears still spilled over from her eyes. Junmyeon felt hurt just having to talk to her about this. She didn't seem to be hearing him, she was too drunk to really let it all sink in. She smiled despite her eyes being closed, she touched Junmyeon's face and said, "He's my dad. He's all I have." He couldn't relate. When his grandparents took him; they were kind and gentle. They worried about him and tried to make sure that he was okay. They loved him and were tender with his emotions. They made sure they did everything they could to help him work through his trauma. He still wasn't really okay but he was better than he was before. He actually wanted to help her. Her body started to go limp and he realized that she fell asleep. He carried her to his room and laid her on the bed. He would try and stay in Minseok's room for the night. He was sure Minseok wouldn't mind, he would be able to keep an eye on him. At least now, he understood his guardian nature towards her. It was a little past midnight when Minseok and Jongin came back in. Junmyeon had to shush them before he explained that she got drunk and fell asleep. Minseok immediately could tell there was more to the story than that but Jongin shrugged it off and mentioned that it seemed like they had fun. He walked off to go get into bed and when Misneok was sure Jongin wasn't in ear shot anymore he asked for the non abridged version. After he explained everything, Minseok shook his head upset. "I wish she'd just let me turn him in." He seethed. "She's very attached to him." "Of course she is, he's her father. She's so scared to get rid of him because if she does then she'll have no one left. He is all the family she has." Minseok said. "What about the run away mother? Do you think they could make it up?" Minseok looked at him like he was crazy. "She hasn't heard a word from her mother since she was ten, after all she's been through, who'd you forgive her?" "No but then again there's lot I would do that she wouldn't." "Of course there is because you two are different people. She's not really a fighter." "She doesn't have grandparents?" "She's never mentioned them. I don't even know if she knows them. I doubt it honestly. This is why I asked you to be careful with her Junmyeon. Things would've gone smoothly if you didn't barge in like that." "Are you kidding me? How the hell did she even get you to keep your mouth shut about all of this? Someone has to wake her up and see that guy for the monser he is." Though Junmyeon was referring to Y/N's father he partly knew his own problems were seeping out. This whole situation was bringing up bad memories for him. They didn't have the same background but they shared pain, a pain that he was sure Minseok couldn't share with her. If he could convince her to stop seeing her father, to keep him out of the house, would she? "She doesn't listen to me. She won't listen to anyone. As long as she does what he says, he'll pay for her college she uses that as justification, if not that she thinks if he apologizes he actually means it." "I talked with him he's got this-- I don't know obsession with her. He needs to have control over her. She's using his mental health as an excuse but that doesn't cut it Minseok, that man is perfectly capable of understanding that what he is doing is wrong." He argued. "Y/N's capable of understanding that too. I'm not condoning what's happening Junmyeon, by no means is this okay-" "Then why aren't you hounding her ass about it?" Junmyeon was utterly frustrated about this situation. His grandparents were his support system. Minseok was the closet thing she had to a support system so why was he just letting her go on like this? Minseok was frustrated himself. A lot of guilt flashed through his face even as he huffed. "I've seen him hit her Junmyeon. I know how bad it is but unless she's willing to speak up about it there's nothing police can or will do." "Okay but as her best friend you should know that you have the power to convince her that she can speak up. You can talk to her and convince her into reporting him. " "I talk to her. All I do is talk to her but she won't listen. I'll try again tomorrow. " Minseok said. Minseok walked down the hallway to his room. Junmyeon took a moment to peer into his too see if she was still asleep. She was out cold. He wanted to try talking to her too. Since they both experienced traumatic events in their past maybe he could help her with the issue. Or at least he could tell her that her father's behavior wasn't worth excusing. There was a simple doubt in his mind, if she didn't even listen to her best friend why would she listen to him? Someone he was sure she wasn't too fond of. He could only try. The next morning came and Y/N walked out of Junmyeon's room looking confused. She covered her mouth as she yawned and then made a face like she could smell her own morning breath. She probably did, Junmyeon resisted his normal urge to tease her about it and walked over to her. "How are you feeling?" He asked "Um...I don't know. How did I fall asleep in your bed?" Junmyeon chuckled. "Don't worry I didn't touch. I laid you down in there and I slept in Minseok's room with him." "Oh," she seemed surprised that he did something so generous. "Thank you." He chuckled, "Well you dont have to seem so surprised by it." "I just didn't expect you to do something so nice. I just hope I didn't get any disease from sleeping in your bed." "Aish you're such a pain in the ass!" She laughed at him. He was being playful when he said it but then he started to wonder if he may have hurt her. He wondered how much his words stung her. He was careless when he spoke with her because he assumed he knew what kind of person she was. She was guilty of being just as careless with him but they were both pretending. They both wanted to be normal, so they could play the role of a typical person despite childhood trauma. Junmyeon cleared his throat, "Listen, about last night," "Oh Junmyeon I don't want to talk about that." "I think it's important that we do." "You don't know what's going on." "Except that you told me what was going on last night. Look, it may be uncomfortable for you to talk about but it's something that really needs to be addressed." "Even if I did tell you, what do you know about what I'm going through. I mean really Junmyeon, you're the one that acts like you have this perfect life and that everything life is gold." "Trust me Y/N, everything that glitters isn't gold. I can understand what you're going through because I my father tried to kill me." She stopped putting up a front and stared at him with wide eyes. The confession didn't just throw her off but she was baffled by exactly what he confessed and he could tell. The police had shown him pity and his grandparents expressed grief, everyone said they couldn't believe someone would do what he did to his own wife and plan what he planned for his own son but in the end, those were the cold hard facts. "I'll tell you my story since you told me yours. That'll make us even, yeah?" He said. She still looked shocked but she nodded yes. Boss Squad: @royalpandajedi @Fromblue2u @Queenpandabunny @marrickej33 @BBxGD @Starbell808 @MelissaGarza @liyahboon Fans: @elishafisher @JaxomB @EXOahjummafan @StefaniTre @Yugykookie97 @dalenalw
Halsey & Suga- “Suga’s Interlude” With Lyrics!!😭💜
https://youtu.be/Q5quSXvQtKI Ahhh!! Halsey released a song with Suga!!! The song is so good! I love it!💜 https://youtu.be/H3RqxDLE6sI Suga’s part made me cry😭 ❤BANGTAN ARMY TEAM❤: @Yugykookie97 @Mochiroon @QueenPandaBunny @MelissaGarza @HUMANWIZARD @agustdsaveme @chimchimsjams @kaylenne956 @kpopfan88 @Aliza1 @Kyla05 ❤ARMY TAGLIST❤: @amandamuska  @blessowmwago @BoyGroupKpop @Bxbybri @CleafeMaeObina @coolwolf13 @dalenalw @echoxsoul  @gabstar143  @Gracebug @HannahC19 @herreraletecia  @HomegirlG  @ifitnessvn @Ilovephases @izzybell1202 @jennyfer1111r1 @jiminiebae @jkenshayla @jungkookieeeee @Just2BLoved @kaylawalker929  @kaylenne956 @krissynormam @kpopfan88 @Kyla05 @MelissaGarza @Mochiroon @Nyxxonn @PANDABTS @QueenPandaBunny @rebeccariley52 @rodrickagardne @Rose2demhaters @samcorsam @simpsonsamantha @Shelbeigh19 @shellyfuentes70 @soobak @Starbell808 @szewwy @Taekookimonster  @Tiffiedannie @wolfyplayzyv @yukigintokie    *let me know if you want to be apart of the ARMY taglist* K-Monsta Squad: @Yugykookie97 @BBxGD @lilbr0wneyes @DefSoul1994 @KpopGaby @MYAlpha @BangtanGirlOT12 Tag List: @cagonzales9696 @MonieManhiM @cherriblossom17 @SimplyAwkward @Btsislife @jaselgalindo @emealia @saraortiz2002 @xsandos17 @VictoriaBossier @TaehyungKey @Sarahdarwish @kpopandkimchi @Emealia @terenailyn @MonAnnahiX @4dalientae @PrettieeEmm @kyokeo @KwonOfAkind @AnimeKpopLover @SugaOnTop  @QueenyCrossGene @MadAndrea @B1A4BTS5ever @zyxzj @Taehyungie @VKookie47 @NuXX @Baekyeol27 @DOislifeExoL @kpopbeat @BulletproofV @PrincessUnicorn @luna1171 @LisetteZapata @herreravanessa9 @MadAndrea @AnimeKpopFreak @amandamuska @RandomName @aliendestina @mrsyookihyun @MaelstromVIP @Foxxyjinxx @Bangtanss @YessicaCardenas @JadeOwens @cns1391 @JJiBin @TheEnlightment @BlueMoon201 @QueenPandaBunny @emberreynemoll @LacyTanner @nyxxonn @SweetDuella @MmIlk @KihyunA @ARMY4Life @SerenaArthurs @Additional18 @jessicaclove  @olive07354  @YungStatin  @nickij @Mochiroon @LiyahBoon @BoyGroupKpop @blessowmwago @Lesha @jkenshayla @Kpoplover2016 *Let me know if you want to be tagged or untagged from the tag list*
J-Hope Spam Tuesday!!🙌🏻😍
Hello ARMY!!🤗 I know I am super late to this! Tuesday was spam day! So here is a spam of J-Hope gifs!!❤️ Enjoy! 💜 ❤️ 💜 Gosh I love this man!😍💜 *credit to the owner’s of the gifs* ❤BANGTAN ARMY TEAM❤: @Yugykookie97 @Mochiroon @QueenPandaBunny @MelissaGarza @HUMANWIZARD @agustdsaveme @chimchimsjams @kaylenne956 @kpopfan88 @Aliza1 @Kyla05 ❤ARMY TAGLIST❤: @amandamuska  @blessowmwago @BoyGroupKpop @Bxbybri @CleafeMaeObina @coolwolf13 @dalenalw @echoxsoul  @gabstar143  @Gracebug @HannahC19 @herreraletecia  @HomegirlG  @ifitnessvn @Ilovephases @izzybell1202 @jennyfer1111r1 @jiminiebae @jkenshayla @jungkookieeeee @Just2BLoved @kaylawalker929  @kaylenne956 @krissynormam @kpopfan88 @Kyla05 @MelissaGarza @Mochiroon @Nyxxonn @PANDABTS @QueenPandaBunny @rebeccariley52 @rodrickagardne @Rose2demhaters @samcorsam @simpsonsamantha @Shelbeigh19 @shellyfuentes70 @soobak @Starbell808 @szewwy @Taekookimonster  @Tiffiedannie @wolfyplayzyv @yukigintokie    *let me know if you want to be apart of the ARMY taglist* K-Monsta Squad: @Yugykookie97 @BBxGD @lilbr0wneyes @DefSoul1994 @KpopGaby @MYAlpha @BangtanGirlOT12 Tag List: @cagonzales9696 @MonieManhiM @cherriblossom17 @SimplyAwkward @Btsislife @jaselgalindo @emealia @saraortiz2002 @xsandos17 @VictoriaBossier @TaehyungKey @Sarahdarwish @kpopandkimchi @Emealia @terenailyn @MonAnnahiX @4dalientae @PrettieeEmm @kyokeo @KwonOfAkind @AnimeKpopLover @SugaOnTop  @QueenyCrossGene @MadAndrea @B1A4BTS5ever @zyxzj @Taehyungie @VKookie47 @NuXX @Baekyeol27 @DOislifeExoL @kpopbeat @BulletproofV @PrincessUnicorn @luna1171 @LisetteZapata @herreravanessa9 @MadAndrea @AnimeKpopFreak @amandamuska @RandomName @aliendestina @mrsyookihyun @MaelstromVIP @Foxxyjinxx @Bangtanss @YessicaCardenas @JadeOwens @cns1391 @JJiBin @TheEnlightment @BlueMoon201 @QueenPandaBunny @emberreynemoll @LacyTanner @nyxxonn @SweetDuella @MmIlk @KihyunA @ARMY4Life @SerenaArthurs @Additional18 @jessicaclove  @olive07354  @YungStatin  @nickij @Mochiroon @LiyahBoon @BoyGroupKpop @blessowmwago @Lesha @jkenshayla @Kpoplover2016 *Let me know if you want to be tagged or untagged from the tag list*
Trauma Ch.6
Who: Reader x Kim Junmyeon What: Angst, Romance, Smut Story: You're just two trauma filled people trying to live normal lives... but trauma is a bitch Junmyeon's POV Y/N came over to work on their project again. Two long weeks had passed since he had told her about his past. The flashbacks in his dreams didn't stop but now mixed with seeing her in them. When they spoke at the cemetery, he had felt something he was unaware of. Almost like he was afraid to break her as he touched her but he had a desire to protect her. He understood what Minseok meant when he said she was fragile but he knew why no one would ever guess that. She acted as though nothing had gone on the past two weeks. Everything was normal with them, the same way he had gone on with his life, medication aside, he was normal. From the outside, no one would know the two of them had experienced the worst trauma imaginable. He found himself staring at her while she was in his room. She no longer had an aversion to sitting on his bed. She was laying across it with her laptop open, she was scrolling through some webpage and she had a psychology book open beside her. Their project was more detailed now, probably too detailed considering they only had about six minutes to present all their facts. She was working on the written paper part of it. He helped with the research but he felt like her part was still the biggest of the whole project. She volunteered for it, saying it was her strong suit. He wondered what else was her strong suit. He was curious about her now and his curiosity was being starved by her. Since he'd talked to her about everything going on with her father, she seemed to want to keep him at arms length. It was like she wanted to go back to her everyday normal life and that scared him. He just knew that meant if she was trying to assume her normal life that also meant letting her father get close again because to her that was normal. He had already heard her make up excuses to keep him around. Junmyeon could understand that she didn't want to be alone but she wasn't alone. She had her friends, she had Minseok why would she want to keep allowing that man, who called her pathetic, worthless, a bitch, to continue being in her life? Just because they were blood didn't mean he wouldn't hurt her. He knew that first hand and now she knew it. What was she so desperately clinging onto? Junmyeon had been staring at her for so long that Y/N could feel it because she looked up at him curiously. She offered a little smile, though it was a bit bashful. "What?" She asked. "What?" She chuckled light heartedly, "You've got a look on your face," she said. "What look?" She sat up while covering her pen with its cap. She crossed her legs and said, "Like you want to say something but you don't want to say it...or can't." He stared at her for a moment and then looked away. He didn't really know what he wanted to say. There were things he wanted to ask her like was she okay, did she talk to her father, was she going to stop seeing him? He didn't ask her any of those things. He just sighed and stood up, "I'm going to get a beer, you want one?" "No I'm good. I probably shouldn't be drinking while I'm constructing an argument," she laughed. He smiled at her politely and walked out to the kitchen. Something about being around her was bugging him. It was that feeling he always got when he was around her though, this need to be on her nerves just so he would be the center of her attention. He took a sip of the beer he pulled out of the fridge while he recalled the gigantic smile she gave Siwon when she saw him. They must've been close for her to be so happy to see him. Was she ever happy to see him, Junmyeon wondered? Does she even like me? He thought. Maybe that was a dangerous thought. He wasn't even sure where it came from. Maybe it had something to do with the day at the cemetery, when he touched her face. He saw her crying for him not just for herself. It touched him in some way he couldn't explain. He felt closer to her for a moment but now that she had pulled back he was a little frustrated by it, especially if that meant she was going to give her father another chance. He was lost in thought as he was leaving the kitchen, he didn't hear Y/N approaching. He bumped into her by accident and his beer spilt on her shirt and exploded onto the ground when he dropped it. She gasped when the beer splashed on her pants as well. She pinched the dry parts of her shirt and pulled it from her skin. "Shit, I'm so sorry Y/N I didn't see you there." He said. "It's alright, I should've been louder I guess." Junmyeon grabbed a napkin and hurried to pat her shirt down until he realized he was patting along her breasts. He stopped and laughed awkwardly and handed her the napkin, "Maybe I better let you do that." "Yeah. Thanks." Junmyeon scrambled to get his beer cleaned up as Y/N made her way into the living room and took a seat. She slipped off her socks that had gotten wet as well and sat with them in her hand. She turned the TV on, now giving the room some noise. He finished cleaning up and walked over, "Glad to know you're so comfortable here you can just turn the TV on." He chuckled. Staring at the TV, fliping through channels she said, "I thought you said you'd stop teasing me." "I wasn't teasing," he sat down. "I'm just making an observation." She had turned on a drama to start watching. She must've hit a dead end in her project, that or they really had been working on it for too long. They had been working for at least two and a half hours straight. The time went by so fast, it probably didn't seem like they had spent that much time working until he got up. Junmyeon had retrieved a new beer and sipped on it while watching the drama with her. His arm instinctively relaxed on the back of the couch. He noticed she shifted in her seat for a moment, almost like she was avoiding him. He set his beer down on the table and said, "Y/N why are you doing that to me?" "Doing what?" She asked, still watching TV almost as if not taking him seriously. Or maybe she wanted to avoid eye contact with him. "Why are you avoiding me?" "Who's avoiding? I've been here doing a project with you and now I'm watching TV with you, how is that avoiding?" She tugged at the bottom of her shirt raising the wet part off of her body. He still felt bad about that even though he never heard her coming. She was as sneaky as her cat. "You don't talk to me much" he said. "It's not like we've talked much to each other before. What conversation we did have involved insults being passed around like a bong at a frat party." He chuckled at the reference, it seemed out dated but she was right. He wanted to talk to her now. The main thing that was on his mine was, is she alright but he didn't want to ask it. He was afraid if he did, he might upset her. She was staring at the TV the entire time she spoke with him though, and that was annoying him. He grabbed the remote and shut the TV off, which finally gave him her attention. "What?" She said. "Can't you at least respect me enough to look at me when we talk?" "I'm looking at you now." "Are you that annoyed that I got you wet?" "Excuse me?" she said, her eyebrows raised. Junmyeon rolled his eyes, "You know what I mean...Unless?" He added suggestion in his voice with the last bit even though he knew he didn't do anything to her to turn her on. At least, he didn't think he did. She smiled though, finally seeming to relax the tension he was feeling and said, "No, I know what you meant I was just messing with you. I'm not annoyed with you Junmyeon. I think you're just reading into things." "I don't think so. You've always been different towards me, ever since we met. You seem so loving with others, so why do I get the feeling that you're always trying to shun me?" She faced him more and took in a breath before she said, "I think the bigger question is, why do you feel the need to be liked by everyone? Or more specifically, me?" It was a good question. He had never felt himself to be a narcissist but as she asked that it took him back to how he felt when she was speaking to Siwon. He wanted her to look at him the same way for some reason. Something was churning in his gut that he didn't understand. For some reason, he wanted to be wanted by her. He couldn't pin point where this feeling was stemming from. He wondered if it had always been there. He looked deep into her honey crisp rounded eyes. Some how they looked doe like to him as she stared back. She looked innocent, he started wondering did her mother drive her father crazy with that look. Were those eyes the reason he had fallen in love with her? In love? Was that what he was feeling? There was no way, the feeling of love wasn't that foreign to him. He loved his grandparents but falling in love was much different and definitely uncharted territory for him. He liked the way she looked, he always had even if he never told her. He was drawn to her when he fist saw her in the apartment talking to Minseok. It had more to do with how cheery she was. That's what made him want to join in on the conversation in the first place. By the time he gathered himself together to sit down by her the mood between them had already changed. He was annoyed that she didn't resume that same demeanor when he sat down though, even as Minseok changed the subject. He supposed he always did tease her because sometimes there was something he said that made her laugh at him. He never noticed how that made him feel though. No, he couldn't be falling in love with her. Yet, his chest felt a little tight as he stared back at her. He had gotten so deep in his head that he cleared his throat and stood up quickly. "Let me get you one of my t-shirts. Looks like you don't like wet clothes." He said. It was his excuse to get away from her for a moment. He took his time getting the shirt too. There was a knock on the door just as he was coming back out of his room. He handed her the shirt and went to answer it. He was surprised to find both his grandparents standing at the door. His grandmother opened her arms wide, "Hello Myeonie!" She said. She wore a giant smile and gave him a big hug. He was so glad to see them too. "Hey grandma Ji Ji. Hi gramps, why didn't you guys tell me you were coming?" He said. He stepped aside to let them in and then walked with him deeper into the house. "We were out and around here so we thought we would surprise you. We're glad your home." His grandmother said. "Yeah, I got some hours on my shift cut back so I could work on this school project-" "Oh are we interrupting your work?" His grandmother asked. "No not at all. Actually, I just took a break. Anyway, I'm always happy to see you guys." He said. "That's good. Have you eaten?" His gramps said. "Uh no, not yet. Do you want to go out to-" "Oh! You have company." Y/n said. Junmyeon turned around to see she had come out wearing his white t-shirt. He was actually happy that his grandparents wouldn't be able to tell one way or another that it was his. His grandfather wasn't a subtle person and he would've assumed they were doing something they weren't. "Oh Y/N, these are my grandparents from my mother's side. This is my grandmother Lee Jimin. I call her Ji Ji." Junmyeon said. "Which you're welcome to call me as well." Grandma Ji Ji said with a smile. Y/N smiled big, that smile that she'd given Siwon and so many others. What was it about him that he wasn't getting that same reaction. It was annoying that he was the only one that seemed to notice it. Did she even know she was doing it? Even if she didn't, what did that have to say about the way she felt about him? Was he really that annoying to her? He did have a habit of being cruel to her though, perhaps it would take more time for her to adjust. Y/N had bowed to his grandmother and said, "It's very nice to meet you." Junmyeon continued with the introduction, "And this is my gramps, Lee Junwon." "Nice to meet you as well Lee-nim." She said. She offered another bow with the same pretty smile. Pretty? It was a pretty smile. He might've gone as far as to say beautiful but only in his head. When did he start thinking these things, he could only wonder. "Yah, why are you so formal to them but not me?" He whined. She chuckled which was a far more light hearted mood than before. "Hey, we were going to go out to get something to eat, did you want to join us?" He asked. "Oh no that's okay it's your family time I wouldn't want to intrude." "Oh nonsense child, we'd love to have you join us. Any friend of Junmyeon is welcome." Ji ji said. Y/N smiled politely and said, "Alright. Junmyeon do you mind if I leave my stuff here though?" "Sure, no one will go in my room." She grinned at him like she had a joke to say but stopped herself because of present company. They all left the flat and jumped into his grandparents car. Grandmother Ji Ji was talking about somethings she remembered about Junmyeon while he was a child which made Y/N laugh. He was embarrassed that she was giving away such secrets and giving Y/N ammo to use on him later. His grandparents had lots of questions regarding Y/N like how they met and what she did in school. He had no idea that she worked a late shift at bar as a bartender but he never asked. He found out she was looking to start a non profit organization for abused children. Her aspiration was to give them housing while allowing siblings to stay together rather than be separated by the foster system. She wanted to make sure that even if they weren't adopted by family members or couldn't be taken in by other family members that they had a stable home and were taught well. She admitted she was stilling planning out all she wanted to do but she was happy that her business degree was helping with all of that. Junmyeon's goals weren't nearly as noble as hers were. He wanted to be able to own a business, any business that would allow him to take care of his grandparents and live life happily. He didn't really consider others in his plans. He just wanted to be something other than the little boy that lost his parents in such a tragic way. On the way to the restaurant, Junmyeon heard Y/N laugh and talk as if she'd known his grandparents for years. It was still annoying to him that she was so much more relaxed with everyone else than she was with him. She did seem to warm up a little around him though. She didn't mind sitting next to him in the restaurant and she smiled at him as she spoke to the table. She smiled at him the way he wanted her to smile at him. He was startled again by the way it felt to see her smile back at him. The way she looked when she was happy was drastically different from when she was terrified. He felt like if he had the ability to keep her this happy in life he would; he'd do it every opportunity he could. If he could make her smile permanent, he would. She caught him staring again, he didn't realize he was. He didn't even notice that his grandfather got up to use the restroom. She looked at him giggling from something his grandmother said, "What?" She asked. Her large grin and rounded eyes were alluring, like a innocent babydoll. Those eyes had to have drove her father wild, if she looked just like her mother, he understood why he lost himself when she walked out on them. Though, he didn't know what type of woman her mother was, he was seeing what a gentle soul she was and despite being fragile, she was captivating enough to lose himself. Her skin was soft, he remembered holding her cheeks when she was crying, her cheeks had become a little rosey as he held her face but she was soft. Her cheeks were puffy, squishy. Just as he remembered that touch, he smiled at her. "What?" She asked again. "Nothing," he said. He was almost bashful as he looked away. He cleared his throat and made a B line to the restroom after excusing himself. He could only imagine what his grandmother might say to her but right now he needed advice from the one person in the world he trusted more than anything. Junmyeon entered the bathroom seeing his grandfather washing his hands. "Gramps, I need to talk to you." He said. "In here?" He chuckled. "Yeah, it'll only take a second though." "Alright son, what is it?" "How did you know- when you were in love with grandmother I mean?" "Well that's hard to say," His grandfather thought for a moment as if searching through his history records of that very day. The moment he fell in love. Junmyeon wasn't sure that's what it was but he was feeling something strongly towards her and he was doing everything he could not to kiss her. He had never resisted such an urge but he didn't want to risk scaring her off either, not after she had finally smiled at him the way he so desperately wanted her too. "I suppose I knew I loved her when I realized I didn't want to live without her." Junmyeon looked at him confused. His grandfather laughed and placed a hand on his shoulder. "It was more than that, I didn't want to live without her actually. I just couldn't live without her. Her most annoying traits had become features about her that excited me the most. She made me feel alive when I was around her. She still does." He said. Junmyeon looked down discouraged. He didn't feel any of that for Y/N. Not at the moment at least, he felt protective of her though. He didn't want anyone to harm her, not even her father. Still, there was a throbbing in his chest even as he thought about her. His grandfather sensed that he didn't give him the answer he was hoping for and patted his back, "Don't worry son, when you know you'll know. Just try asking her out on a date." He said. Junmyeon looked at his grandfather suspiciously and his grandfather smiled back. If anyone could pick up how he was feeling and who he was feeling it for, it would be his gramps. He smiled back and they walked out of the bathroom together. There was someone who had stopped by the table and Y/N's face was lit up as she was talking to him. It wasn't the Siwon guy that he had seen before. She was very interested in what he had to say though and she was laughing so hard she covered her mouth. When they made it over to the table, Y/N looked at him and said, "Junmyeon this is Ryeowook. Wookie this is my project partner. He's also Minseok's roommate." "Oh, hi! Nice to meet you." He said. Junmyeon bowed politely, "Nice to meet you too." Y/N popped out of her seat and let Junmyeon scoot inside so she could finish talking to Ryeowook. He felt like he was invisible at the moment. It was starting to crush him a little. "Uh, listen I better go before Heechul gets back." Ryewook said a little weary. She crossed her arms and sounded intrigued, "Oh he's here?" "Yeah, I don't want to make you uncomfortable though." "I wouldn't be. We broke up four months ago I'm over it. Besides, I've missed you two so much, my cutie Wookie!" She sounded cute as she pinched Ryeowook's cheeks. She was friends with her ex's friends? That was odd to him. That also meant that her and Siwon weren't actually an item, old or current. Minseok did tell him she went through a break up. Her friend seemed to blush as she teased him cutely but they also seemed like they were as close as Siwon and her used to be. It was a secret Junmyeon wanted to discover; how does he get close to her? At this point, he seemed obsessed with the idea of getting Y/N's attention he just wasn't sure if it was because it was directed else where, if it was because they experienced a similar past or if it was because he was developing feelings for her. He started wishing he had spent time alone with her. "Oh, here he comes. I better get going." "See yah, tell Siwon to stop by any time okay? Lady misses him." She beamed. Her friend laughed and waved goodbye to her before heading to her ex. Y/N took her seat by Junmyeon again and resumed speaking with his grandparents. Junmyeon wanted to get a better look at the guy that she used to date. He looked over her shoulder, he looked a few years older than both of them. Her ex had turned back to see Junmyeon staring at him. Junmyeon felt territorial for a moment. There was a look in her ex's eye that he didn't like, it was almost the same kind of look he saw in her father's eye when he arrived at her front door. That look made him sick. Junmyeon's arm wrapped around the back of her seat like he was marking his territory and telling her ex to stay away. "Isn't that right Junmyeon? " his grandmother chuckled. Junmyeon looked back at her a little surprised, "Huh?" "We were talking about favorite foods. Yours is japchae right? " she said. "Oh, yeah. Actually, Y/N made some for dinner one night. It was the best japchae I ever tasted." "Really, we'll have to try it someday." His gramps said. Y/N's smile beamed like a ray of sunshine. It was like she was so proud that someone wanted to taste her cooking. "I'd love to have you all over one night to try it!" She said. "We can arrange a date right?" Junmyeon asked. "Of course!" "Oh darling, you must let me bring dessert then." Grandma Ji ji said. "She actually makes the best moon pies in all of Seoul." Junmyeon confirmed. "Sounds like a dinner plan to me. Let me know whenever you're free we can set up a night." Junmyeon actually liked how well his grandparents took to Y/N. He took to her well too. He was definitely feeling a much different way about her now than he had before. After they had finished eating, Junmyeon's grandparents dropped them back off at his flat and Y/N came inside with him to get her things. Minseok had classes earlier that day and work that night so it was obvious he wouldn't be home but neither one of them knew what Jongin was up too. Y/N was gathering all her stuff together when Junmyeon thought he might take a moment to really test what he was feeling. "So how did you like going out with my grandparents?" He asked. "Oh I really like them. I was seriously about the dinner night too. If you all ever want to drop by, just give me a heads up about it. I'd love to have them over." "You seem to be cheerier than before." She nodded with a huge smile. "That's the first time I've ever been around someone's family and felt so welcome. Today was like- being in a dream. Like I got to experience what I always wanted to experience when I was little....It was like I was with family," "My grandparents tend to have that affect on people." he said. She hummed as if day dreaming about being around them again. "Were they the only ones you liked being around today?" He asked stepping up to her. "Hm? What do you mean?" He came closer and his voice lowered almost to a whisper as he gazed into her eyes. "I mean did you enjoy being out with me?" "Yeah, you're more interesting than I gave you credit for." She chuckled. "So let me ask you this," he cupped her cheek again, like he did the day at the cemetery, "does being with me make you feel anything?" Her eyes widened a little, they looked doey that way. Wide, surprised and glittering. She was still like she was just now recognizing how close he was to her. She took in a shaky breath but he couldn't tell if that meant she was turned on or scared. "Like what?" She whispered. "Like how I feel?" He dipped his head down hovering over her lips. "How do you feel?" "Like I want to kiss you...Can I?" The question must've taken her by surprise. She swallowed and her lips parted again with labored breath like her heartbeat started to run away from her. He teased like he'd kiss her hoping to coax an answer out of her. He deeply wanted her to say yes, even if it was in a whisper. His body was aching, he felt excitement rush through him with anticipation. He never asked to kiss, he usually surprised the girl or he just knew it would be okay but with her he couldn't take any chances. He needed to know if this was okay. Everything inside him was hoping it was okay. "Yes." She whispered faintly. Junmyeon smiled, even though he wanted to crash his lips into hers and kiss her so hard he could draw out his soul, he didn't. He lowered his lips to hers and tasted them for the first time, small but soft. She breathed in like she was scared but their lips molded together and Junmyeon's hand felt the softness of her cheek. Their warm wet tongues caressed each other and Junmyeon's heart pounded in his chest. He felt heat rise through his body and that feeling he felt in the restaurant returned again. He wanted her. He wanted her so bad he wanted to scoop her up and take her without asking but he forced himself to be patient, to enjoy the taste of her on his lips like a savory candy. He kissed her long and took his time before pulling away as if he would never get this chance again. He was hoping to get this chance again. It felt like his heart was in his throat as he reluctantly broke the kiss. He looked into her eyes, her pupils now blown up which made him stir below. She looked hypnotized like he caught her under a spell. "Don't hurt me," She whispered. "I don't think I can survive being hurt again." She said. "Believe me, hurting you isn't anywhere in my plans." "What is?" He smiled, lifted her chin and brought his lips to her ear. "Will you let me have you tonight?" He pulled away to look at her face, she looked stunned he even asked her. She looked like she was conflicted between her body wanting to say yes and her mind saying no. She looked scared but she also looked like she wanted to allow it to happen. She looked uncertain. She must've been questioning him in her mind. "Will you be gentle?" she whispered. He smiled and brushed hair behind her ear, "Of course." She looked like she was still thinking her decision through before she looked back at him and said, "Okay." He was ecstatic she agreed. He pulled her close to his body, and kissed her down to the bed. Would sleeping with her fulfill this aching in his heart, he wondered, or would it throb even more to know her? 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