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WARNING: REFERENCE TO SELF HARM. (I do not encourage it, I know people go through this and I was one of them, if I upset anyone I'm sorry.)
As I was in the shower I kept critiquing my body. Areas that needed work. I just wanted to look healthy and normal. Why was that so hard for me. I added a cut to my thigh. I always said I'd never do this but it surprisingly made me realize that I was really alive. I let the blood run down my leg and let the water wash it all away. I was thinking of trying on my wrist but when I went to do it there was a knock at the door. "(Y/n) breakfast is ready." "Ok I'll be out in a minute." I put the razor down and turned off the water. Why when I hear his voice I regret doing it. I quickly got dried off and put my clothes on and ran to the kitchen to eat. I was hungry. I could smell bacon. He had laid out waffles and eggs and bacon this morning. I was amazed. It all looked good. "Wow you made all this?" "Yep. I had to learn since my parents are always gone." He smiled and sat next to me. I took a bite. "Oh my god it is amazing. Can you teach me." "Yea it's pretty easy." He said then shoved food in his mouth and I followed his lead. After we finished eating he started to head to the bathroom. "We're going out today so be ready when I get out of the shower ok?" "Ok" I said and went into my room to change clothes and add makeup and fix my hair. (pic 1)I wonder what we're going to do today. After about 20 minutes he was at my door. "Let's go." When I turned to look at him I was stund. He looked amazing. (Pic 2 and jeans and we'll say nikes) "You look good." I said smiling "You too. Come on we got stuff to do." He pulled me out of the house. Outside was a cab. We got in and he said out destination. "The beach?" "Yea it's one stop today." He grabbed my hand and held it. I looked at our hands. What was this...was I falling for him? I started thinking back over the small period we've known each other. I realized I had to be. I was happy with him and I didn't think any horrible thoughts when I was with him. We were quiet most of the ride which was weird. Once we got closer he started getting excited. Once the car stopped he paid the guy and pulled me out. "I've always wanted to do this." He said fixing our hands so our fingers were intertwined. "Do what?" "Walk on the beach while holding hands with a girl. " I laughed " Well I think your supposed to do this kind of thing with your girlfriend or at least the girl you like. But I'll help you out today." I looked out to the water it was really pretty. I never really came to the beach. I hated the crowd of people that always were there. After several minutes I pulled my hand away and ran towards the water. I don't know why but it looked like it be warm. "(Y/n) what are you doing?" J-hope said behind me. "Come on!" He was closer to me than I thought before I could touch the water he had lifted me up and pulled me back. He spun me around to face him. He was upset. "Why would you do that?" "Um I thought. .." I looked down why was he mad? " do you still think no one cares about you?" "J-hope. ..." "Why would you try to kill yourself and in front of me again. " his voice cracked. I looked up at him. He had tears in his eyes. He thought I was going to drown myself. That's why he was so upset. "I wasn't trying to kill myself. I just wanted to play in the water." "You weren't ?" "I swear I wasn't going to." He let out the air that he was holding back and pulled me close placing his lips on mine. This was a better kiss than the first one we shared. He pulled back a bit. "I love you so much and I'm terrified of losing you. " He whispered and before I could answer him he kissed me again. This time I kissed back. I never wanted to see him cry again. And if us being together made us both happy then great. We deserve happiness. Finally we broke apart. "Do you have something to ask me?" I asked with a smile. "Did you like it?" He raised an eyebrow and smirked. "That's not the question I meant but yes I did. " "Ha good. (Y/n) will you be my girlfriend?" "Of course." He pecked my lips again then intertwined our fingers together again. "Was this why you were acting so weird today?" "Yea I was nervous" "Awe your so cute. " I kissed his cheek and we walked along the beach a little longer. After we left the beach he took us to the park by my house. The one we came to the other day. "So yesterday was when I realized how much you meant to me. When you were crying I was so angry at your parents and I wanted to protect you from them the best I could." He sat down on the swing and I followed. I was touched. I know everyone always says you can't fall in love with someone at first sight or in a short time, but when you see that person everyday and they make you happy how can you not fall in love with them? "It's odd. I never thought I'd fall in love so fast." He said pulling me back to look at him. "Same here. But us spending so much time together it makes sense that it could've happened." "I'm glad it was you. Your just perfect for me." He smiled and I smiled back. "What else do you have planned for today?" I asked "Well I have lunch planned" with that he grabbed my hand and pulled me toward the other end of the park. He walked up to a bush and pulled out a basket. "When did you put that there?" "I had one of my friends put it here for me. " He opened the basket and set up our area. We sat down and ate. Once we finished eating he packed everything up and then pulled me down to lay in his arms. We Laid there watching the clouds go by and pointing out the shapes we could see. It was a great day.
What do you think? I hope there love doesn't feel rushed... tell me what ya think....I have a few ideas of where I want this to go.
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