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To be Forgiven Ch. 4 (Fanfic)
I'm sorry for the late update it has been crazy! I hope you guys like it!
I suggest re-reading the last chapter.
If you're new to the story here are the links to the previous chapters
'Would I really be forgiven? Would I really be able to move past this?. Would you even accept me? All these questions that rushed to my head are questions I want to ask him... But how can I? How can I ask the man I love to forgive me when I can't even forgive myself? How can I be so selfish.? To even want to keep him for me?'
I groan to myself as a memory comes to mind.
'"I will always be here," he said. "And yes, I do forgive you... the question is would you forgive yourself?" Would I? Am I even allowed to? Or do I even deserve it?'
I groan once more in my sleep.
"Isaaa....." a voice says groggily. "ISA WAKE UP!!" the same voice says, louder this time.
I opened my eyes to see a sleepy Namjoon trying to wake me up by shaking me. I was about to yell at him for waking me up when I noticed my alarm going off. I quickly reached for my phone and turned off the alarm when I saw the time.
10:40 am
'Sh*t' I thought. 'I'm going to get late!'
I have a meeting with the organization providing me with the scholarship to Seoul University today at 11:30. I can not afford to get late to the meeting.
I quickly jumped up from the bed and ran to the bathroom to get ready. Thank God I had picked my outfit yesterday before the boys arrived at the hotel room. Now that I think about it, it really wasn't a smart idea to have a sleepover the day before my meeting with the people that will provide for my education. Smooth Isa... Very smooth
After finishing taking my bath and drying myself, I put on my outfit. It was a black pencil skirt, a white button-up blouse and a black blazer. I let my hair down in its naturals curls and looked at myself in the mirror.
I was in the process on putting on my make-up when I remembered my dream. It was weird, I mean it's not the first time that I've had that dream, but there was never an answer from this so called man I love.... But what changed? Why does this man appear out of nowhere? And who is he?
Someone knocked on the door and I was brought back to reality.
"Yes?" I called out.
"Isa? Are you finished? I kinda need to use the bathroom..." I recognized the voice as Taehyung. I giggled as I opened the door revealing a sleepy V. I got out of the bathroom and let him in, not before getting my stuff to get ready.
When I walked towards the bed I noticed Jin, Hobi, and Namjoon all sitting in the bed trying to wake up. Awee, They all looked so confused. Cute. J-Hope was the first one to notice me entering the room and when he did his eyes widened. The poor boy looked so surprised! I looked down at myself to see if there's something wrong with my outfit, maybe I put the skirt backwards or something. I was about to ask him what's wrong, but before I had the chance to Jin started talking.
"Woah Isa! Where are you going dressed like that?" he asked surprised. I looked down at myself again to see if there's anything wrong with my clothes.
"Why? Does it look bad?" I asked self-consciously.
"Bad? Oh no! there's nothing bad about how you look! On the contrary, you look really nice" he answered. I blushed. Thank God I already had blush on so it's not noticeable. Namjoon is the only one that hadn't talked and when I noticed, I looked at him and he was starting at me with an expression I couldn't really comprehend.
"Oppa?" I called him and he snap out of his trance. Weird. He looked at me and gave me his dimpled smile.
"You look really nice Izzy," he said. Izzy? he hasn't called me that in a while. Izzy was the first nickname he gave me when we became friends and while we were dating, but after we stopped dating he stopped calling me that. Probably because it brought back memories. Although it actually feels nice to hear it again, even if it brought bad memories as well as good ones. I gave him a sad smile that let him know that I remembered.
He smiled back and got out of the bed to go change. He already knew where I was going because I told him yesterday, and I also asked him to give me a ride. I went towards the night stand and grabbed my phone. I turned on the screen and looked at the message I got. I looked at the time and it's 11:05 am already!
"Sh*t Sh*t Sh*t!!! I'm going to get late!" I mumbled to myself grabbing all the things I needed and putting them in the bag. When I finished I turned to look at the boys to tell them I have to leave, but they were all starting at me. Some were amused and others were chuckling... 'Well damn I guess they heard me' I thought to myself. I just smiled sheepishly at them as they smiled back.
"Well... um... I gotta go...." I said to them. "I will see you guys later...?" I said/asked. They all chuckled and nodded their heads.
"Let's go," Namjoon said to me while grabbing his car keys and exiting the room but not before saying bye to the boys and telling them that he will see them at practice. I waved once again at the boys and also exited the room following Joonie.
Following Namjoon to the car, we are now both inside the car on our way to the interview. Both of us enjoying the silence. However, Namjoon was the first to break it.
"So... about your birthday..." He says.
"Namjoon... I... uh.... I can't..." I interrupted him before he can go any further.
He sighs.
"Isa... when will you stop blaming yourself for something that was out of your reach?" He says sadly.
I stayed silent. I couldn't tell him that I will never be able to forgive myself. I have to, at least, pretend that I will. For his sake and mine.
"We're here" was the only thing I said. I got out of the car saying bye to Namjoon and went to my interview.
>>> ???'s POV <<<
After what seemed like days, I finally arrived in Seoul, South Korea. That flight sure was tiring. Now, what should I do? I can't let Isa now I'm here just yet. I should probably call Namjoon. Although I haven't talked to him in months I still need a ride. Namjoon it is.
I dialed his number and hoped he answered.
"Hello?" He answers.
"Well hello there," I said smiling.
"Bonnie?" He asks confused.
"The one and only" I answered.
"Wait... how are you using a Korean number? aren't you... no way...."
"Yes I am here, so how about you pick me up? It's cold." I answered for him.
"On my way!" and with that, he hung up.
While waiting for Namjoon to arrive, I bought myself a cup of coffee. It's been a while since I have last seen him. Isabella has always maintained more contact with him than I have. After he left everything went wrong. I had to study abroad for personal issues. Isa was left alone. Of course, we always stayed in contact. However, we never knew what she was going through. Not until it was too late.
"Bonnie!" I heard a voice called. I turned around to see a smiling Namjoon waving at me. I smiled and waved back. When he was close enough he hugged me and said he missed me.
"How come you're here? First Isa and now you?" he asked.
"I knew Isa was applying to Seoul University and I knew she was going to get in, so I thought why not apply? the worst that can happen is getting rejected. So, I applied and here I am." I said smiling brightly.
"Woah! Congratulations! How come you didn't call Isa first? Did You miss me that much?" He said smirking.
"Ha! You wish! you see Isa's birthday is today and, as usual, she doesn't want to celebrate it" I said kinda annoyed with my best friend for letting her past destroy her life. "And that my friend is where you come in," I said smiling deviously.
"Where do we start?" he replied, also, smiling deviously.
Short chapter yes I know! I'm sorry! I will try to update sooner.
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Yay!! Can't wait at all but I will try :)
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@BelencitaGarcia hahahaha love ya
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@sarahdarwish thanks for trying
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@DawanaMason he is indeed
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(I need Jackson!) I love this! So much! I am SO ready for an a new update already!
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