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Little longer of an update but it didn't have a good stopping point in the middle. Thanks for reading and the great feedback ^_^

Parts: all found on card one

WARNING: Mature, gang related content

Another day here. What the hell? Are you serious Himchan? Do you realize what the fuck is going on? From what you know you should assume I'm being tortured and you haven't made one move? Shows how much I mean to you. The thought of how little I'm worth is torture in itself.

"Youngjae? Why hasn't he said anything?" I'm on the verge of tears. I don't want to cry in front of him, but there's no one else to talk to right now.

"I don't know Seunghye. I don't know how he could just ignore this. Maybe he's getting things ready and hasn't finished leaving yet."

"He should have said something by now no matter what the reason!"

He looks away as I raise my voice. "I'm sorry. I don't know what to do about this. This is probably the first time in my life I don't know something and it's you that's at stake. Is there something I can do to make it easier on you? Anything?"

"How about letting me go."

He sighs. "I can't do that. As much as I want to, I can't. My men's lives are at stake too." He raises his head as if he just got an idea and quickly looks at me. "What if I at least let you out of this room? Would that help a little?" His eyes are pleading. They're begging me to give him some kind of relief from his guilt.


"Okay, good. Well, I guess as long as I don't leave base you can sit with me in my office. Sure, it's not the best change but it should be better than being stuck in here all day. I know Yongguk isn't a talkative one so you must be staring at the walls lost in your thoughts."

Really? I get to sit and watch you do work? Fine. Better than nothing; this room was beginning to drive me insane anyway.

"I guess."

"Follow me then. I'm sure Yongguk would like to have his room and bed back anyway." He flashes me a smile.

This was Yongguk's room? Why would he take me to sleep in his room? That's oddly sweet.


We walk through the hallways with Daehyun following close behind; he still makes me uneasy. We come to another metal door that looks like every other. They're all unmarked, I don't get how they can tell the difference.

"Why don't you number or mark the doors? Isn't it hard to remember which is which?"

"It's so that intruders have a hard time finding things, even if they have information on where things are, it's like a maze in here so they'd be caught before they could get anywhere. And it's not too hard to get around once you get used to it."

"If you say so."

Daehyun takes his post, sitting on the chair near the door. Youngjae opens the door and lets me in first; but before I walk in Daehyun gives me an odd look, one that tells me he really doesn't like that I'm here.

"Wait, you said we'd be going to your office?"

"This is where I do my work, it's my office."

"It looks more like your bedroom."

"That's because it is."

"So I go from one bedroom to another. Not to be rude or anything but what exactly is the point."

"Well, Yongguk gets his room back, you get a change of scenery, you'll have someone to talk to if you want, and there's a TV. Plus, I'll enjoy the company, but that's more of a selfish reason."

"What about at night when you sleep?"

"I'll sleep on the couch. It's a pretty comfortable couch so I don't mind. And you deserve to sleep on a decent bed after what I've put you through." He's had a smile this whole time. How lonely is he to be so happy to have a hostage keep him company?

"When you put it that way I can't help but take you up on your offer. Is it okay if I sit down on the couch?"

"Of course! Go ahead, be comfortable. Do you want to watch a movie? I don't have any work to do right now so we could watch one." God, he's like an excited little kid. Not at all like a gang boss should be.

"One question first."

"What's that?" He asks without looking back from rummaging through DVD cases.

"Why are you like two different people?"

He stops what he's doing and his arms drop by his side, but he still doesn't look back. "What do you mean by that?"

"You're very different when you're with me than when you're around your men. When I first woke up here I was tied to a chair with a bag on my head. From what I've learned about you from the conversations we've had, that's probably not what you actually wanted to do, since you didn't want to hurt me."

He drags his finger across a shelf and quietly speaks, "You had a bag on your head so I couldn't see your face all beaten up as you were passed out and you were tied so you wouldn't fall over."

"Yongguk says you aren't affected by things, that you're indifferent and don't feel bad for anything. When you talked to me that first time, I was frightened. You seemed like an actual villain, as if you were straight out of a movie. A calculating psychopath. With the way you looked at me and spoke, you were intimidating. But when you first came to that room and spoke to me without anyone around you were insecure. You felt bad and didn't want me to think you were a bad guy. Those are two totally different personalities."

He doesn't respond. He's either ignoring me or thinking about what I'm asking.

"Why is that? Which one is really you?"

"Both are. I have to be a boss, I have to be strong and intimidating for my men to trust me as their leader. Being smart isn't enough, I need to be a threat to enemies. That despicable behavior is inside of me, I hate it, but it's still me. The side I show you is the side I like; but it's one I can't show anyone else. When I graduated I came to this gang, and my brother warned me that I couldn't show this side of me, that I needed to let out the man that would be feared. The man that could be trusted to take over if he died. Before I came here was the last time I was able to show any happiness or softness. That's the reason why I've been going out of my way to visit with you. I mean hell, you're staying in my bedroom right now."

He takes a few moments to gather his thoughts. "Seunghye. Please understand, we all have things inside that we hate, that would scare people, that would make them despise and fear you. I have to let mine out, embrace them. In this place, it's what keeps me in charge and earns me respect. So I'm sorry if I'm forcing you to be in this room because I want company. If you'd rather stay in a different room you can, you just have to say so."

Damn. That's way more than I expected. I was hoping for something simpler, but I suppose if this guy is highly intelligent, then there isn't going to be anything simple about him. "Youngjae, I'm fine in here with you, you're pleasant to be around. I like this side so don't worry. I understand you're reasoning for what you do and I appreciate that you are making things easier for me when I'm being held here. You make things not so bad."

"Really?" He looks back at me half surprised and half not believing what I'm saying.

I walk over and gently place my hand on his shoulder. "Yes. I don't lie."

He breathes a sigh of relief and slightly smiles. "Thank you. Well now, let's pick a movie. What kinds do you like?"

That was a quick mood change. "Umm let's se- wow! That is a lot of anime!"

"Oh god, yeah. I know, I'm 22. I'm too old for that, huh?"

Oh he's blushing! That's so...were you really just thinking that? Remember Seunghye he kidnapped you and had you beaten. Nice guy or not, he's not cute so that ends there.

"No you're not. Truthfully, my brother reads manga and he's older than you. Romantic stuff even, not just action. He used to anyway. I'm starting to think I don't even know him."

"Do you like anime?" He looks at me curiously.

"Huh? Oh, I guess so. I watched a couple episodes of Naruto when I was little. It's not bad."

"Oh I love Naruto! Want to watch it? I have almost all the seasons!"

"Sure? Sounds fine." I'm a little taken aback by a grown man being that excited about a children's cartoon, but I'll try it.

"Awesome! Go sit down and I'll get the TV set up." He's walking around, bordering on the edge of being giddy.

I go sit on the couch and I'm a little out of it. My mind is overloaded by the mood swings and topics of that entire conversation. I guess it's a good time to forget what's happening for a while and watch a movie.
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