Ciao! Here we are again, my friends. I got behind and so we're just going to finish this up on one card. I'm sorry. You know me... Let's do this, yes?
Day 20: A Song That You Listen To When You're Angry
Three of my all time favorite albums contain these songs. All of them mean something to me specifically and for whatever reason, I turn to each of them when I'm angry. From The Crow OST: I talk about this movie more in Day 22's block. The movie means a lot to my brothers and me, and it has for a long time. So does the soundtrack. I remember being a 8 or 9 years old when we first watched it and we STILL watch it together. Years later, as a teenager, the album was big in my life. I was a girl with three older brothers, my boyfriend had just been deployed and he couldn't even tell me where to at one point, I was highly stressed as a competitive dancer and gymnast, and, oh yeah, I hated life because I was a TEENAGER. My brother still calls it The Teen Angst Years. I would slam my door and turn this up as loud as possible....and be promptly ignored.
-___- How did no one care?! We all remember those feelings, right? RIGHT??The Cure: "Burn" - The Crow OST The Strokes - "Under Cover of Darkness" = Instant mood boost! But as I got older, I mellowed....a little. I "met" a man named Julian Casablancas whose voice could make me happier on command. Instantly. So today, when I'm grumpy: Strokes. Thinking too much: Strokes. Writers block: Strokes. Lol, I just enjoy The Strokes...even when I'm happy, though. So it gets confusing for my loved ones. My bf has been around a long time and knows that The Strokes playlist could signify something on my mind. When he notices that I have it on, he gets a little antsy. After three songs or so, like clockwork, here he comes, adorably cautious of the time bomb he may be walking in on, checking to make sure all is well. Sometimes, a girl just needs to vent her thoughts and have a conversation with Julian. The Strokes are multi-emotional. But, then, there are black days. Then, I turn to my number 1. Justin Furstenfeld - lead singer of Blue October. He is obviously in my head somehow. He writes songs about my world, about MY crap. I don't know how he does it, but he just gets me. They manage to mix incredible, deep, raw lyrics, with music that is either gritty or beautiful - or both at the same time. This is a live clip of "Amazing & Weight of the World", two of my MANY favorite songs by my favorite band. When I listen to Blue's music, I always feel soothed, no matter how bad it is. If I am in intense pain, this is always my first choice.
Day 21: A Song That You Listen To When You're Happy
Trick Question: Everything! But here are a few songs from my current playlist:
Daft Punk ft. Julian Casablancas - "Instant Crush" (aka the best thing ever)
MGMT - "Kids"
MO - "Kamikaze"
Muse - "Starlight"
ONE OK ROCK - "The Beginning"
Alexandros - "Dracula La"
Stereo Dive Foundation - "Renegades"
BTS - "Run"
CL - "Hello Bitches"
Twice - "OOH-AAH"
Who am I kidding? Just add ALL the music ever!
Day 22: A Song That You Listen To When You're Sad
"It Can't Rain All The Time" by Jane Siberry - The Crow OST
I've discussed the murder of my husband previously in this challenge. It's something that one has to live with for the rest of your life. I have a lot of sad moments that creep up on me. Random, unexpected things can trigger a memory and the next thing you know, you find yourself staring off into space, a tear slowly sliding down your cheek.
Then, there are entire days that sometimes surprise me with a sucker punch TKO. I wake up having had a dreams of memories and I can swear they are real. Nothing makes that better. Nothing soothes that pain. Before he became a cop, my husband (to-be back then) was an Army Officer. He was a bit older than me and so I got to hang out, "stuck" in high school while he trained at Ft. Benning, and then got assigned to places around the world. It sucked. Without fail, though, I'd get letters. We always talked about music, of course. It was something we still had in common, even if I didn't know where in the world he was. It framed everything and if we had a song that described how we felt about something, we'd share that with each other as a way to better communicate our clumsy emotions. The first time I met him, he was spending the weekend at my house hanging out with my brothers, playing basketball and video games, watching movies, doing what guys do. I came in after dance and hung out to watch The Crow with them. That was the first time we actually hung out and spent any time together. We sat around afterwards listening to the soundtrack and talking, and eventually Joe and I started dating. This song was always our favorite on the album. Anytime I was sad, he would tell me, "It can't rain all the time, you know" and it would make smile and feel better. Years later, when he was killed, I asked his parents to play it at his funeral. When I returned to dancing, about 8 months later, my partner and I actually had our college exit recital and danced to this song as a tribute. (I talk about that here.) When I'm sad, I turn to this song. There's a deep connection. It makes me hurt in a profound way. Yet, it's also a balm, as if he's in the notes somewhere within this random, quietly hopeful, mournful song. Maybe that doesn't make any sense, but it helps me.
"Cherokee" by John Moreland - Please allow me to introduce you to my friend, John Moreland. Remember how I said some days are instant TKOs? Well, this song basically describes the mentality of those days perfectly. The video just makes it even more haunting. "Missing You" by 2NE1 - the lyrics. It's that simple. They just kill me every single time. :((( "Heartache" by ONE OK ROCK - again. The lyrics. And this studio performance is so beautiful. Every time that I hear this one, I get contemplative and sad, because I get it, I guess. That moment when you're realizing, "so, THIS is heartache... Well. It fecking sucks."
Day 23: A Song That You Want To Play At Your Wedding
My wedding would be a very musical affair. Obviously! If I were to get married right now, these song would be mandatory:
Harry Connick, Jr. - "More"
Chet Baker - "My Funny Valentine"
Green River Ordinance - "Endlessly"
Day 24: A Song That You Want To Play At Your Funeral
Lynyrd Skynyrd - "Tuesday's Gone" I've been telling my family that for a long time. Don't forget! I told y'all on day one I need Queen's "Who Wants to Live Forever". Favorite song. 💜 Here's another version of it with the current touring singer, the super amazing Adam Lambert. *swoon* Egoist - "Planetes" "When the planets fall You and I will pulled towards one another and will surely be able to meet again at the place where we made that promise" Then after all this sadness, people, get the N'awlins started, please! I want a second line jazz parade blended with some murmurs...ya hear? I'm counting on y'all! See The Strumbellas singing "Spirits" above for guidance. Evan, paint the casket with blue butterflies. Obviously. I'm counting on you!!! 💜
Day 25: A Song That Makes You Laugh
For a while, my dance partner had a YT channel that did pretty well. I worked behind the scenes, editing, choreographing, laughing, etc. While it was active, we were invited to attend several YT functions and met some really cool people that I became really good friends with here in CA. Some of them have pretty much kept me sane living here. We eventually put the channel on indefinite hiatus because we got way too busy. (But that's a good thing!!) Meanwhile, we've assisted some of those other YouTubers along the way - dancing, choreographing, assisting, featuring, contributing as needed, etc. We've watched as some have gone on to do mind blowing things (performing at the mf'n Grammys!!) while others just keep on keeping on. One of those friends works with a show called Epic Rap Battles. Check these out. A few of my faves: Shakespeare vs. Dr. Seuss Superman vs. Goku Mozart vs. Skrillex
Day 26: A Song That You Can Play On An Instrument
The Academy that I attended required all students to choose an instrument when they enrolled, no matter what they were there to study - art, dance, music theory - whatever. Music was the center of their entire curriculum and it worked well. Their scores were consistently superior. I chose the piano in the second grade. I wound up picking it up pretty quickly. It turns out that I can play almost anything by ear and I was considered fluent in two years. I continued to study piano, but I also picked up violin, for study's sake. By the time I graduated high school, I played piano, violin, cello, clarinet, saxophone, and guitar. I truly enjoy playing and these are two of the songs that I sit at my piano and play simply for my own enjoyment and relaxation:
Chopin's Nocturne Opus 9 No. 2
Beethoven's Moonlight Sonata
Day 27: A Song That You Wish You Could Play
Yoshiki - "Without You" Yoshiki wrote "Without You" for his X Japan bandmate Hide after he died. It is one of the most beautiful pieces I have ever heard and it's one of my favorite songs. I have danced to it in Nationals and won 2nd. It's powerful! I've been meaning to master it for Years. This is the year!
Sidenote - my dp/bff surprised me a couple of years ago and took me to SF see Yoshiki live on his classical tour. (Books and Music = Greatest gifts ever.) OMG. The man is SO AMAZING. To be such a legend, so incredible, a genius composer and rock star, he's so soft spoken and humble. I walked away in love and star stuck, which is pretty rare for me. The man is just magnificent.
Day 28: A Song That Makes You Feel Guilty
I grew up with three older brothers. We're all very close. The youngest is two years older than me and we've always been inseparable. He was my first best friend and partner in crime. We bond over music and agree that Blue October is our favorite modern band. He's made some really bad life choices that resulted in him getting into a lot of trouble and hurting a lot of people around him. He helped me when I was in some of the same situations, on a much lesser scale, and of course, I've tried to help him as much as I possibly could. But I also have a child to think about...and when things got out of control in my home, I had to ask him to leave. I haven't seen or heard from him since... in years. He told me when he left that he "knows that I hate him", which isn't even close to true. I love him intensely. He has no idea that every night I cry and pray to a God that I'm not even sure exists anymore just to make sure he's still alive out there somewhere. Every time I hear "Hate Me" by Blue October, I think about my brother and this entire situation. :(((
Day 29: A Song From Your Childhood
The Penguins - "Earth Angel" Every Saturday night, my parents listened to an oldies call-in show on the radio and played poker or dominoes with my aunts and uncles while all the kids played together. They'd cook Native and Cajun food and it would always be a loud, happy night that went on and on and on. Without fail, my daddy would call in a song for me and have the DJ say that it was, "To A.J., From Daddy." Then he'd pause his games and dance around the kitchen with me. My Very First Dance Partner. 💜 I can't hear the song without thinking about that...no matter what. ^_^
Day 30: Your Favorite Song At This Time Last Year
💜 Jack Savoretti - "Home" 💜 James Bay - "Scars" 💜 Andrew Combs - "Nothing To Lose" 💜💜💜 If you didn't know these guys before now, well, you're welcome. ;-)
There we go. A little late, but all done. (The freaking app simply wouldn't let me finish on the road! >.< I was soooo FRUSTRATED.)