2 years ago5,000+ Views
The Moment You Decide To Stop Hating Yourself.
It feels like I spent forever hating my linebacker shoulders, wide like my fathers, broader then guys that I know, size one million in blazers and size "Mens section" in flannels. My "friend" once told me that I looked like a huge lumberjack when we were 15 and I was trying to look nice. It didn't help that my shoulders were bigger then her hips.
Its been a decade since I realized I was bigger, since a picture of me was taken from behind and I saw just how wide I looked. How not feminine my frame was.
Its been a lifetimes since I realized that I take up more space then people deem women should.
But last night I went to the gym and got on the treadmill for my warm up cardio. The windows in front of me reveled the darkness and my reflection in a tank. Wide shoulders, strong strides, calm breathing.
And I looked fucking strong.
For 3 miles I stared at my shoulders, the things I thought no boy would want to try to sling his arm around when I was a teen; and I loved every part about them.
I loved how they moved with my strides, ever increasing as my workout went on. I loved looking at them and remembering that those shoulders bulldozed people in rugby. Those shoulders led me to being captain, to hitting hard, to loving a sport that embraces the strong, not just the slim.
I stared at them and realized they can piggy back any one of my friends, and have on many drunk occasions. They help me lift kids and spin them around to make them giggle when they are sad, to keep them still when they are having a tantrum.
I look at my wide shoulders and strong back and totally see the linebacker my Dad use to be and now I can love the connection.
This morning I stared at my shoulders as I got dressed. And it felt so fucking nice to smile as I looked in the mirror. Embracing your body feels so much nicer then hating it.

So tell me, what are you going to decided to love about yourself?

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@LizArnone you're amazing!!! @.@ I'm still on my way to self confidence so I loved reading this card! You always make me feel better c: I'm pretty much the opposite, body wise. Since I was little, I've always had low muscle control in my shoulders and highschool destroyed my posture with book carrying, so I never seemed to look, well confident. I can't stand up straight anymore so my appearance starts interfering with my emotions and I end up looking like a person that just wants to hide. it's only been a couple weeks now that I'm finally weightlifting a little bit to strengthen my back and shoulders and finally look as confident as I want to feel c: Continue self love! You've already inspired mine c:
2 years ago·Reply
@orenshani7 no it isn't me!! A rugby team did a body positivity photo shoot !!
2 years ago·Reply
@Luci546 posture is sooooo difficult and can really change an attitude !!!! Keep up the hard work and keep working towards self love because you are amazinggggggg
2 years ago·Reply
@lizamone , OK but I still think you're beautiful
2 years ago·Reply
@LizArnone thank you so much!!!!! :D yes sadly it is a rarity but I hope that one day it won't be!
2 years ago·Reply