LizArnone
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Why My Anxiety Makes Me Braver Then You.

Okay, so maybe not braver, sorry. My anxiety is pounding my skull knowing that people will get upset, think that my title is me calling them cowards, that they know I'm not brave. Don't be mad at me its not what I meant, I'm sorry. Let me start over.
My anxiety makes me braver then you think; after you call me a worrier, after you deem me too "inside my head." My anxiety doesn't just clog my vision, it fogs yours to the fact that everything I do is a big deal, while flashes of "but what if the worse happens" shoot though your head in my voice. What you don't understand is that it is so very hard to live a life of spontaneity, of breathing in the air and wishing I was the wind, when my mind makes me think that every second someone I love will die because of some arbitrary decision that I chose wrong. It's hard to live a life when your brain only focuses on destruction.
So, what I want you to understand is that if I had to describe myself in one word its brave. And not in the valiant knight, stand in front of an armed man to stop is bullet brave. I'm talking about how every day when I come home I check the closets, under the bed, and behind the shower curtain because I always think someone broke in. You never do that because you aren't afraid of that, you aren't anxious. But through the tight grip my anxiety has on my stomach I look. Every day.

My anxiety makes me afraid of almost every situation, yet in every single one, I swallow and search out my fear; I push forward.

My anxiety makes me braver then you.
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I really needed to read a card like this and I'm glad I read it. I will not let my anxiety get the best of me. It's been really hard for me these past three weeks. I'm taking a class at a different school. My anxiety tells me to not go. I show up though and I'm having. I'm not going to let it conquer me anymore
preach it. anxiety isn't my big issue personally, panic and depression is, but I think that these things share a common theme. and it does make us stronger.
@kimleekwonshin Good for you!!! the hour before I have to go to anything is the worst for me. I will try talking myself out of it every time.One thing that helps sometimes is when I either write down or just say the things that are true and the things that are feeling based that my anxiety produces. It may sound dumb but there's some power to it when you put the task in perspective!
This is awesome. My anxiety is really bad with certain things. This post makes me remember that I'm not the only dealing with demons on the inside. I have a dental procedure in a few hours, and my heart is racing now, just thinking about it. Thank you for sharing this.
@InVinsybll I totally agree anxiety couples oh so nicely with panic and depression but it makes us so much stronger!! @kimleekwonshin I just started a new job last week and I still am freaking out about it so I totally relate. But we're going and were excelling. Good for you!!
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