A couple of years ago, I was in a relationship and felt like I needed to be alone. I wasn't upset with the person I was dating or the situation that we were in but I always felt like I couldn't really be myself until I spent some time alone. I thought it was what I needed and even though we decided it'd be best to take a break, it was that time when we were broken up where things got harder for the both of us.
We were still in contact but a lot of our conversations went from being happy that we were still friends to intense arguments. We'd talk to each other like we never liked each other. And the fact of the matter is, we were both still a little too emotional to even have these conversations. So listening to American Football's I'll See You When We're Both Not So Emotional was an obvious choice for me. I felt a little less alone in my feelings when I'd drive home from her house blasting this song.
But in retrospect, I feel like I should have been more kind to this person when I wasn't but I, at least, know that they're happier now with someone else. The person I was years ago isn't the person I am now and if I could talk to them I'd apologize to them for everything that's happened between us. Not in an effort to date or be with them again but just to find a way to be friendly in the way we used to before we started dating.
If you're still prone to accidents and misunderstandings, you won't understand me or my motivation for being alone. We're just two human beings, individually. With inherent interest in each other and how we relate. Considering everything, me leaving with regrets only makes sense. I'll see you when we're both not so emotional.