2005 was 11 years ago, can you believe it? I was 12 years old when this song came out. I was just learning about who I wanted to be.
In times of trouble or confusion my little brain always turns to music. It's a complete reflex at this point. Some songs stick with you forever, and others fade into the background.
More often than not, the songs that we repeat over and over have struck a chord in us. Whether its the lyrics or the beat is irrelevant. It's all about the feeling you get when you listen to it.
Babyshambles' "Fuck Forever" could be my favorite song of all time. It's the perfect portrait of a mind on the edge. When you're in a constant state of choosing whether to self destruct or keep it together, it can be hard to get anywhere outside of your own head.
The reckless abandon in the lyrics creates a chaos that I didn't realize was home to anyone else but myself. This song became my partner in crime.
There is a stunning duality to it as well. You can see that the lyrics are strained between the ideas of death and glory. Should the singer choose to destruct, what will he lose?
I always ask myself that question, and lately I find that I have a lot more to lose than ever before.
"So what's the use between death and glory?
I can't tell between death and glory
Happy endings, no they never bore me
Happy endings, they still don't bore me
But they, they have a way
A way to make you pay
And the way they make you tow the line
I severed my ties
I'm so clever
But clever, but clever ain't wise
So fuck forever
If you don't mind
If you don't mind."
See the duality? Happy endings...life making you pay for your sins, being too clever for your own good? They're all feelings that come to me when nothing else can. It's an anthem for the doomed, for the people who can't figure out if they're the protagonist in their own life.
Have I been masquerading as the antagonist the entire time? Am I a self-destructing villain?
Fuck Forever is the only anthem you need. It's got a chorus that won't quit, ideas that make you think and guitar parts that won't leave your head unless you force them out. It's a throwback track that can never get old.
Pete Doherty's honest, blunt and downright aggressive lyrics don't pull any punches. That's what makes an ordinary song an anthem.