Sometimes the pain that you feel you grow to like because you're so used to it. When you do start to feel the pain is too real. So you swallow it down with your pride. At times when you feel this way God is only taking you back to square one. Not because he hates you or thinks you're less than, but because he loves you and he's trying to protect you from the wolves that come out at night. Just hold on. What God has for you is so amazing and unbelievable compared to what you think you should have. If I can obey God and move across the US just so one city. I'm more than certain that you can quit that job. Start a new. Change your degree. Even move across world. God is faithful and he will provide for you always with you obey him. Do what you have to do and don't look back.