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I smile and laugh because I cannot cry, I cannot cry because...there is an absence of reason. Hopes and dreams and pain and tears, possible futures and terrible fears, all held simultaneously in a strange state of stasis-- so that I'm left just...numb. Redirect my focus to trivial, day-to-day things, to distract and detach. But, in the silence of being alone, it looms over me. Hollow and unfathomable. I'll just do what I do, and shove it into a box, bury it deep, and wait for the day I can open it again.
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@2Distracted @annamolly I give you both a hug, your writing really touches me, confidence is such a hard thing these days for me, I hope your finding some support and love.
@mrsmith Aaaawwwww.....😊THANKS! You definitely have the gift of encouragement and I thank you for sharing with me your wisdom from your own journey as well as the encouragement to keep pressing forward toward healing. You have a big ❤!
@mrsmith (hugs) Thank you! I'm learning to accept and welcome support and love. I wish I knew how to better express it, but I really appreciate your empathy and hope you also have support and love, too!
@annamolly Well if you are a INFJ like me then your probably an introvert which means your best form of communicating is thru writing. is that right? I've never felt comfortable or been able to find words in person to say verbally to someone. All my truly close loved ones thankfully have been really accepting of the fact that if I desire to tell them how much I love them it will usually be a big mush note(as I call them) in a card or via text/email.
Beautiful note @annamolly :) I get the trying to be distracted by day to day stuff, but in the long term it helps me a LOT. Living in the present is my coping mechanism :D