I just really feel like someone out there needs to here this. Don't sit in your bitterness. Bitterness only goes deeper to your roots and slowly begin to corrupt the good soil God has planned within you. You just have to reach deeper in your heart than you've had before. You can't hide from or deny those bitter roots you have. You just have to let God and allow God to recreate your heart. You heart won't be pierced by these bitter roots you just have to want it bad enough and put work in. God can only change a heart that's truly willing. He can't force someone who says they want change and doesn't do anything about it.