Don't settle for less. At time your heart will want you to settle where you darn well know it isn't suppose to be it reminds of these lyrics "you can tell our whole empire. I don't I have to see you right now." Also You've got so much going ahead of you. So keep pushing and know that God is God and he sent his to die for you. Maybe you feel like asking "well Jacob you don't know..." Stop right there ok? It doesn't matter who you are what you believe or will do or did. God's grace is huge and big enough to cover the stains your life brought to you. Just think about what you just read for moment.