So I have to say something that's been on my heart and mind of late. Life isn't just about you. Yes you reading this. Just relax and know that God is God he's so good loving. So instead of always looking out for you or making your center of attention take a step off your pedestal and allow God to take your heart and reshape it. It's horrible and scary and there will be many many tears and tense moments, but just let go of your pride for this once and let God do the real work he's started. Maybe you went to summer camp or went to winterjam and God did amazing work in your heart, but you may feel stuck. You might feel stuck because you went back to your old ways. Just trust God and allow him to take center of your life. Just go all in here. Right here right now. You only have one life. What will you do with your one precious life? There's no respawn or restart. Live the life that would your most loved one proud and happy if you're unsure about this whole God thing. God can and will change your heart and its desires.