I just really feel like God is putting it on my heart to share/tell someone out there this. God's love is unlike any love our there. You may be turning to drugs, self harm, alcohol or even boys and girls. God is telling you that in your heart every time you run he's right there to meet you where you are at. Satan just has a hold on your heart, because you're fearful of what you may feel when you feel God's love and grace. Just know God is always with you and he forgives you. Don't lose faith in things unseen. You're dying to be loved. Love is right in front of you. You'll find the keys when you realize that you don't have at all. God does.