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So, I've been keeping something inside and I haven't told anyone about it. I thought now would be a good time to say it. I may seem like I'm happy which I am most of the time but lately I've been feeling down. I've been depressed, stressed, and feeling useless to others. I feel like I'm failing my friends. I'm not eating. I'm not sleeping. I'm not doing anything. I'm inside all day. The only time I go out is when I have school. That's the only time I leave the house. My mom worries about me because I never answer her when she calls me. She's said this to me a few times, "I worry about you. I ask myself 'is she still alive? Is she cutting? Is she bleeding?' I always ask myself that" when she told me that I left and went back to my room. I didn't care if she was worried about me. I have more issues with my dad than my mom and I've wanted my dad to sign off his custody of me because I don't want to see him. I said to myself, "If you cared about me you would take him back to court for him to sign off his custody" after saying that to myself, I cried myself to sleep that night without telling anyone about it. It caused me stress to not tell anyone about it, so I thought it would be best to let you all know here. Since you all care and you are all my family. I'm sorry I've kept this inside and didn't tell anyone what was going on. It was just to hard for me to tell anyone.
Listen....I know its hard...but stay strong!!! A few of us...maybe many of us are going through the exact same thing. Just know that we will always be here for you. its not easy to stay strong for people who we think hate us. Your mom asking you those questions show that she's worried....I'm depressed too so I know how it feels....its hard when you think everyone would be better off without you....Its hard to overcome this. If you stay strong and try and seek the positives in life I'm sure it'll
Honestly u wish I lived near you so I could go cheer you up right now. But since that is not our reality I offer you a virtual hug!! If you feel down and need someone to talk to you can always count on me to offer up a listening ear!!!
hey girl, I know what it is to shut down and hide away not talking to anyone about your feelings. I'll keep you in my prayers to give you strength and peace in your mind and heart so you are able to talk with your mom and confront the situation about your dad. you don't deserve to hurt like this, no one does. like everyone else said, we are all here for you with open arms. private message any one of us anytime if you need anything!
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