So, I've been keeping something inside and I haven't told anyone about it. I thought now would be a good time to say it. I may seem like I'm happy which I am most of the time but lately I've been feeling down. I've been depressed, stressed, and feeling useless to others. I feel like I'm failing my friends. I'm not eating. I'm not sleeping. I'm not doing anything. I'm inside all day. The only time I go out is when I have school. That's the only time I leave the house. My mom worries about me because I never answer her when she calls me. She's said this to me a few times, "I worry about you. I ask myself 'is she still alive? Is she cutting? Is she bleeding?' I always ask myself that" when she told me that I left and went back to my room. I didn't care if she was worried about me. I have more issues with my dad than my mom and I've wanted my dad to sign off his custody of me because I don't want to see him. I said to myself, "If you cared about me you would take him back to court for him to sign off his custody" after saying that to myself, I cried myself to sleep that night without telling anyone about it. It caused me stress to not tell anyone about it, so I thought it would be best to let you all know here. Since you all care and you are all my family. I'm sorry I've kept this inside and didn't tell anyone what was going on. It was just to hard for me to tell anyone.