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Hey guys I know I haven't made a card in a while, I've been going through a lot. Depression had hit me real hard these past months, but anyways. I am planning on biting tickets for the got7 concert in LA, but I might end up going alone. Now it may not be a big deal to most people, but I have crippling anxiety and a huge fear of being alone. That being said I was wondering if there was anyone who would be willing to meet me there, or if I could just tag along with someone. My plan was to get the group photo ticket or the hi-touch nor sure yet, but I just don't want to be Really scares me..
on another note,about the fic I was writing, I'm sorry I haven't updated. life had pretty much had me down a lot. I have horrible mother problems, and that made a lot more family problems. my great grandma passed away, and I couldn't even go to her funeral. past couple nights I wake up crying. I tried to solve my problems with drinking, and that didn't help. I don't talk to anyone, and I have no friends of my own. so I've been going through this pretty much alone. I have my bf but sometimes I don't think he really understands. so I really just hadn't felt like writing anything pretty much. my chest hurts almost all the time. I can't control my own tears anymore, to be honest the only time I smile is when listening to music, or when I'm drinking. I know "mom problems" doesn't sound bad, but it's really bad. and then I see that other people on here have health problems and it made me feel like shit for even feeling sad. I contemplated suicide a lot this month. I sometimes still think about it. i should stop I don't want you to feel sorry for me, I just wanted you to know I haven't forgotten my previous obligations. I got way too much into detail, and it's probably going to seem like a cry for attention I'm sorry. don't ridicule me please I'm truly sorry.
aweeee i haven never gone through as much as you but i also feel really mad and sad at myself but life goes on and it's ok. in the end you will be happy just surrpund yourself with people that truly help and if u can't do that thwn that's what us vinglers are for! πŸ˜‰ FIGHTING! and aweee i hope your able to go to the concert and have fun. I hope you also find someone to go with i wish i could go with you but i live in dallas soooo πŸ˜‚
Thank you for staying strong. 1 thing I learned about suicide, it affects a lot more people than we realize. You don't have to apologize for expressing how you're feeling. I don't want to make it sound like I know what you're going through, because I don't. I'm glad you mentioned it. Please remember, even though it looks like you've been going through this for a while, every storm eventually passes. Just gotta keep striving for that rainbow. I'll be praying for you. Fighting! ✊ πŸ’œ I'm willing to listen if you ever need someone to talk to, even though we don't know each other. Even if I'm busy, I'm always checking my phone. Don't forget that there are a lot of (free) resources available that can help you. I hope we'll be able to see that rainbow soon.