I love you then I hate you.
As much as I love you, we both know that we can no longer go on like this. I’m so used to using you and you just let me, as if it’s okay. Trust me, I’ve tried leaving you behind on several occasions, but at the end of the day, the truth of the matter is that I still need you.
I often wonder what life would be like if we had never met or if I didn’t fall head over heels -- literally. If only you would’ve told me ‘no’ every time those store runs turned into full blown shopping trips. I know you notice that I have issues, but the fact that you stick around regardless goes to show me just how much you care -- or do you? I can never really tell.
What I’m trying to say is, maybe it’s best that we take a bit of time apart for awhile.
I want you, but I don’t need you -- at least not all the time. I’ve become so dependent on you that I don’t really know how to break loose. I can’t keep spending you, no matter how much satisfaction it brings me in the end. At the end of the day, it will always be my loss until I learn how to save and learn to truly appreciate you.
I'm doing this for me, I hope you understand.
I hope that you can forgive me for taking you for granted for all of these years despite how good you’ve been to me. All things heal with time and I'm hoping that maybe with time, we can mend our relationship. While the cheap thrills are exciting, I have to look at the bigger picture and realize that I need you around in the future. This isn't goodbye, it's until next time -- and that doesn't mean next time I see something I want online.
Is anyone else a compulsive shopper?
Can you relate? What does most of your money go to?
Share your saving tips if you have any.