I just went to Fall Out Boy's "Wintour Is Coming" Tour in San Francisco, and my God was it incredible.
For some strange reason, when I'm in the middle of a transition or having a hard time Fall Out Boy always happens to be on tour. Seeing them in my new home of San Francisco was a pleasure, and it got me thinking about a lot of feelings we music freaks tend to feel at concerts, and how they can effect our lives afterword.
Once you get in the queue to enter the venue, it's butterflies. Honestly you're probably about to see your idols or heroes, and that never gets old no matter how many times you do it. When you look up to people for a long time concerts end up becoming a sort of religious experience.
There's going to be people in front of you, unless you are me at 14, skipping school to be in the front row of the Believers Never Die tour. No matter how old you get, or how many concerts you go to, you'll probably never get over the fear of standing in the back where you can't see anything. Luckily, you're kind of smart, and decide to get in the middle of things toward the beginning of the show and then slip our later when you realize that you can see better in the back anyway.
Yeah, you're going to get dehydrated, so make sure that you drink a lot of water beforehand. All of those people sweating and swaying in a tight area is not conducive to a comfortable situation. If you don't want to brave the pit, you might want to just get some seats, no shame in that!
If you're anything like me, rock stars just have that "thing". You can see someone a million times, but their allure just never seems to go away. I still have a massive crush on Patrick Stump from Fall Out Boy, and his talent and charisma always make me smile no matter where I am or what I'm doing. Seeing them live was incredible, and yep. Still into him.
Yesterday, as a 23 year old woman at the concert of a band she had been listening to for 10 years, I was met with the unforseen challenge of 12 year olds with pointy elbows. Thinking I definitely wasn't too old to jump around I arranged for pit tickets for my friend and I. Because naturally, I want to be as close to the band as possible. Anyway, there were some youngins' who thought otherwise and began elbowing me in the side. I wasn't a happy camper.
6. Awe (Look how close I was!)
There's no moment more insane than the second the lights go down at a concert. There are a few seconds between the darkness and the band taking the stage. It's in that moment where everything feels infinite and electric. It's a beautiful energy. No moment has ever made me more emotional than that one. It doesn't matter who is playing, or for how long...it always puts me in a place of awe.
When your favorite band is playing, nothing can phase you. You might get a little anxious because of the amount of people, but other than that you feel like you're floating on air. The songs of your youth are ringing in your ears, and everyone around you feels the same thing. It's a fantastic feeling.
It can't get better than this. The music, the fun, the comradeship, the fear of tomorrow going away...contentment is a feeling I don't get very often. But when I'm on stage or near one, everything falls away. Last night was a testament to that freedom, the freedom that music gives us from our everyday lives.
Giving everything over to the music is an extremely freeing feeling. I've been having a hard time lately and a lot of things have been changing. I felt a lot of anxiety and fear at this concert, but once I was able to stop thinking and place all of my energy on the stage, it was like nothing mattered at all. Fight Club taught me that losing all hope was freedom, and I think that being at a concert brings you really close to that because it's just a giving over of your hope, to the music and the group of people that surrounds you.
Once the last notes ring out and the confetti is done falling from the ceiling of the venue, you can't help but feel relief. Relief that you spent the money on tickets, and relief that the concert is over and you can bank the experience. It's something beautiful to really get close to your heroes. And early in the concert I saw Patrick look right at me as I was singing the lyrics to one of their older songs. It was magical. So fun that I forgot about all the work I had to do. Relief is a wonderful thing and doesn't come to me often, and if concerts are the thing that gives me hope for the next day, minute, hour, year, then so be it. Everyone has to get their strength from somewhere.