Everyday you choose what you want to feel you do. That's all you not anyone else. its YOUR mind YOUR actions. You can only blame YOURSELF no one else. If you chose to be a bitch everyday of your life that's on you. If you decided to be happy then that's you. NOT BECAUSE OF ANYONE ELSE BECAUSE YOU MADE YOURSELF HAPPY. Stop telling yourself that your happy cause of a guy or girl no it's the memories. I'm not saying be happy all the time it's okay to be sad but I'm just saying. you don't need anyone to cheer you up. YOU do the saving YOU also kill yourself it's all up to you. that's all I'm saying.