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chapter 5 : White Day
Sunny had finally accepted our friendship but the rule was we were never to hang out alone. At school we were able to hang out but not outside of school unless she was there or she knew about it. I accepted that condition because I couldn't bare being away from him. I needed to at least be able to talk to him and see him smile. Hear his voice. The voice that made my heart race, to be able to see him. His perfect features and those dimples.
Even though Sunny had agreed to let us be friends she'd still make me miserable when he'd come to visit her. She'd kiss him in front of me and call him all these pet names. He'd call her baby and babe. To hear those words come from his mouth made me wish I was the one he was saying that too. I've never wanted him so much as I did now but I can't possibly tell him. He's so happy, he's never had that look with me nor has he smiled as much as he does when he was with her. She gave him this superb happiness that not even I could. He was so in love with her that I just couldn't tell him.
Sometimes I came close to telling him but when I remember how he looks when he's with her, I think to myself 'Do I really want to do this?' I hated Sunny with all my heart and soul but I loved him too much to ruin what he had with her.
So it was then I decided that when they were together, I'd hang out with JunHong.
"What do you wanna do today?" He asked.
I shrugged. "It doesn't matter. I don't have anything in mind at the moment"
"You wanna go to the movies? That new horror movie is out already." He suggested.
Horror movie? But I'm scared... I've never seen a scary movie without Namjoon before...
"Don't tell me you're afraid Minji" he teased.
"No! I just... horror movies are overrated." I said.
"No. You're afraid, your face says it all.
We're gonna watch that scary movie! Come on!" I grabbed his arm and we made our way to the movies.
It was kind of empty. Like 3, couples and a few other people...I was scared to death but I can't possibly tell JunHong that. I gulped and closed my eyes when I knew scary parts were coming up. I thought of Namjoon and suddenly I didn't feel so scared anymore...
I opened my eyes.
I jumped up and gasped.
Before I knew it I had clung to JunHong, tightly gripping his sweater. I felt him put his arm around me.
"Sunbae...Are you alright?" He whispered.
I let go of his sweater and looked up.
"S-Sorry..I got startled." I whispered back.
"We can leave if you want" he looked at me.
I shook my head. "I'm gonna go to the restroom. I'll be right back" I said.
He looked at my lips then back into my eyes.
My heart began to race, what's he doing?
He looked back at my lips.
"Don't move..." He whispered and leaned in.
No. I don't want to kiss him...what should I do?!
He stopped. Phew. The movie saved me.
"I'll be right back" I said and walked out.
What was that about?! Ugh, I can't possibly go back in there. He's gonna try to kiss me again. But I didn't know he liked me..does he? But I don't feel the same! I love Namjoon for crying out loud and he knows that! Why would he do something like that? I paced back and forth and tried to contemplate what was happening. Should I ask him? Maybe he has a logical explanation. But yet again its my fault. I probably gave him the wrong message.
Why did I ever agree to this stupid movie?! I'm already scared to death and its only been 30 minutes! I'm so stupid! I looked in the mirror and took a deep breath.
You can do this. It’s just a movie. Just pretend Namjoon is here with you...Namjoon is my happy place. If I think of him everything will be okay. Yeah. Okay. Here I go.
I went back into the theater and sat back in my place.
"You feeling better?" JunHong asked.
"Yeah. I just needed to freshen up"
He handed me his sweater. "It’s okay if you're scared. I promise I'll protect you Minji.."
I looked at him. "You will?"
He nodded and smiled warmly.
He's so nice to me, it would be stupid of me not to fall for him but sadly I am stupid. I'm in love with my sister's boyfriend, my best friend who will most likely never acknowledge me as a lover but a friend. That's all I will ever be. A friend. But what if I gave JunHong a chance? Maybe if I do I can forget about Namjoon and move on.
But yet again...What if I can't? What if I only end up hurting JunHong? What if I can't return the feelings he has for me?
I looked at him. "Yeah?"
"Is it okay for me to scoot closer to you?" He asked.
He waited for me to answer.
*MONSTER/GHOST ROAR & NOISES*
Once again I clung to him and hid my face in his chest. My arms around him.
"JunHong.... I'm scared..."
He put his arms around me and held me close.
"Don't be. I'm here with you..."
I smiled at his words and stayed in his arms. My heart fluttered and my stomach got this fuzzy warm feeling.
-2 Months Later-
It's White Day.
A day that I'm dreading, I wasn't expecting anything but that's not the reason I'm dreading it. I'm dreading it because Namjoon will most likely give Sunny something....
I didn't go to school on Valentine's Day because honestly...I didn't see a point.
Before I'd give Namjoon chocolates but of course he's my friend so he never assumed anything that had to do with a love love. He took it as friend love...
I walked down the stairs and came to a stop when I was passing the living room. I took some steps back and looked again.
A giant Rilakumma bear...There's balloons, a big and heart shaped chocolate box with roses...
I already knew none of that stuff was for me. I knew that it was for Sunny but why did I check who it was for and who it was from?
Clearly in denial, I wanted to believe that they were from someone else but...once I looked at the tag. My heart immediately shrunk. I felt as if it was being repeatedly stabbed.
I looked at everything and there was a little basket with goodies in it. But among all of it there was a black box. Do I dare? I took a deep breath and quickly peeked. My eyes widened and I put it back immediately. I went to put my shoes on and was out the door.
I felt really glum and depressed almost. How could he do that to me? I honestly never thought that he'd give her something that was mine...he just engraved their initials on the back. Does he really care that little about me?
I arrived 10 minutes early, I made my way to my locker. I watched as everyone around me carried around candies or a teddy bear of some sort. I took a deep breath. Who cares? It’s not like its important plus those guys are probably just giving those girls something in return. Maybe...
I opened my locker and fixed it a little. I took some books out of my backpack and began getting the ones I'd need to start the day.
I looked up. "Oh, hey Namjoon. Good Morning" I said.
I wanted to confront him but then he'd ask how I knew, it could turn into an argument. So I didn't bring it up.
"Happy White Day" he smiled.
dimples, one of the things I love most about him.
"Yeah. Thanks..." I said and closed my locker.
"Let's walk to class together." He said cheerfully.
For once, I didn't want to be near him. I wanted him to get away from me. But even so I can't bring up the courage to tell him that.
I simply nodded. We began walking to class. He was really talkative this morning. He always is but today more than usual. I nodded, smiled and used short answers. Even if I'm hurt, why is it that I can't hate him? Why can't I stay away? He's my sister's boyfriend now. I can't think of him as anything else. Our friendship is going down the drain but he doesn't seem to notice at all. It's not the same anymore but only I see it. This made me feel even more upset, how pathetic... I'm pathetic...
We walked into the classroom, everyone was looking at me. Namjoon looked at me.
"Why's everyone staring at you?" He asked.
We went to the back where our seats were. I looked at my desk, my eyes widened. What's all this? A teddy bear, a boquet roses, 2 heart shaped balloons, box of chocolates and a card.
I looked around but no one seemed to know, maybe they were staring at me because of the stuff that was on my desk.
I sat down and looked at everything. The bear was cute, it even had the school uniform on. I smiled.
"Who gave this to you?"
Namjoon, has he been standing there this whole time?
"I don't know, but whoever it was... It really made my day." I said.
Namjoon was silent.
I grabbed the card and wondered if it says who it's all from. I opened it and my jaw dropped. There's a silver ring taped at the bottom!! A couple ring? What?!
"Is that a couple ring?" Namjoon asked.
"I don't know..." I took it off the card & Looked if it had anything engraved on the inside but it was blank. I felt flattered really.
"Why are you smiling like that?" Namjoon asked a bit angry.
"Why shouldn't I be?" I looked at him. "Am I not allowed to be liked by someone?"
I read the card and it was a confession.
My heart has already found it's way you. I want you and no one else. You mean everything to me. I think we should try and make this work. You have to know you're the one, and only one I want. Not only are you perfect for me, you're the perfect friend and I hope we can and will be more. I could never ask for better then what we have had. I am hoping you're feeling the same way because my heart is set on you, and only you.
Your secret admirer.'
Friend. Which means I know this person.
Namjoon snatched the card away from me and read it. Once he did, he set it down. He walked out of the classroom. Where's he going?
I looked at the ring. Maybe I should wear it and if I get some sort of reaction then I'll know who it is. I put it on but felt sad...I sighed. Even though Its a really nice gesture and thought. I really wish it was Namjoon giving this to me. I picked the card back up and noticed there was small writing on the very bottom. I looked closer and it read 'Meet me at the rooftop at 8 a.m'
I looked at the time, 7:57. What if Namjoon...Oh no. I grabbed the restroom pass and made my way to the roof top.
"Namjoon! What're you doing?!"
I rushed over. Namjoon had him by the shirt, lifting him almost.
"Namjoon! Let go of him!" I yelled.
He dropped him on the ground. His lip was bleeding. I looked at Namjoon.
"What the hell do you think you're doing?! What did JunHong ever do to you?!"
He looked at my hand. "Why are you wearing this?"
Why is he acting so crazy? It’s like his jealousy has reached his peak.
"Because I want to!"
His eyes widened.
"JunHong, are you okay?" I asked as I went to him.
I took my handkerchief out and wiped his lip.
"Minji..." Namjoon grabbed me.
"Ya!" I pulled away. "Stop acting like this! I don't understand you Namjoon! Its okay for you to be with my sister but I can't be with him?!"
What am I saying?
"JunHong has been there for me the many times you've ditched me for HER! How dare you come here and hit him!" I yelled.
"I don't want you getting hurt..." He looked at me.
Its too late for that...almost every day you hurt me...
"He's not going to hurt me...he's never done anything to hurt me"
Not like you.
"Do whatever you want then." He began walking away.
He turned to look at me.
"I like Sunny's necklace..."
There. I said it. My heart felt heavy but I said it. There's no taking it back now.
I helped JunHong up. "Should I take you to the nurse?"
"No. I'm fine" he smiled at me.
My heart began to race.
"Well, I'm taking you anyway" I said. We walked past Namjoon.
"Minji..." He spoke.
"I don't want to hear it .." I said. "Do whatever you want"
It almost feels like we're a couple. But the bad kind, always fighting and making each other feel bad.
I stayed in the nurse's office with JunHong for a while.
"I'm really sorry, I don't know what got into him." I said.
"He just really cares about you Minji. Don't worry about it, I would've done the same. He was looking out for you" JunHong said.
"But that wasn't a reason to hit you." I took a deep breath.
He held my hand.
I looked at him.
"Don't worry about it. I'm fine." He said. "I mean at first when I saw him instead of you, I thought maybe she told him to come but then when he grabbed me and asked what my intentions were...I knew that was all him"
"Sunbae" he smiled.
I smiled back. Maybe I should give him a chance. Maybe it’s better if I do, that way I'll forget about Namjoon..
"You're wearing it." He held my hand up.
I felt a bit embarrassed.
"W-Well...I wasn't gonna leave it in my backpack or anything." I said as I looked away.
The nurse came in.
"You may return to class" she smiled at us. "Here's a note excusing you"
"Thank you" we said.
We walked out of the nurse's office and made our way to class. We walked slowly though. He grabbed my hand. I felt an electric current run up my arm and the butterflies in my stomach were going insane. My heart began to race.
I'm scared to look at him.
"Did you find everything to your liking?"
"The chocolates, the roses, the teddy bear" he said.
I gulped. "Uh, yes. Thank you. The Teddy Bear is really cute"
"Cuter than me?" He asked.
We stopped walking.
My heart was racing. I looked at him.
"N-No." I said.
"That makes me really happy." He kissed my cheek. "I'll walk you to class then I'll make my way to mine"
Did that just happen? I felt my cheek as if it was on fire. We began walking again.
I wonder how things will be now. JunHong and I aren't just friends anymore, Namjoon and I...
I'm not sure we're friends still or not. At this point, I didn't care. What he did is something I can't forgive so easily. I can't help but feel like maybe what I thought and hoped for was and is nothing but a mere illusion. A dream that will never be real...
>>>>>>>>>>>>To Be Continued<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<
credit to : Koneko_Senpaixx
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