Relationships are tricky. I always find myself in a position where I would want to be in one, like it would make me happy. It's like I've been raised in a way to believe that true love is one of the things that a person needs to feel like a successful or fulfilled human being. And as I get older, I feel like that it isn't the truth. Or at least, it isn't my truth.
I recently came across two new Modern Baseball songs (that'll be on their album Holy Ghost, which is coming out in May) and one of them really gets the way I feel about relationships in general. Especially when I find myself in the position where the person I'm into and I only interact online or through text message.
Now, I'm still listening to the song and really picking it apart but there are few lyrics in the song that really hit home for me. When I heard those lines, it felt like there was a weight being lifted from my chest and being pressed into my lungs at the same time. I couldn't believe that I really felt like I don't want to wait anymore but relieved that I'm not the only person that feels that way.
Is this past or present? I can't seem to make it all out. What's truths betrayal I find in the heat of the moment. Betrayal, what have I done now?