The Wonder Years have been one of my favorite bands for a long time. And for a while, they've kind of been a guilty pleasure band. One I only listened to in headphones and never in the car. But I think I was doing them a disservice. They're one of the most honest bands I've listened to in a long time.
So when I was revisiting their discography at work today, I found a song I listened to all the time but never had any personal meaning to it. And after a short conversation with a friend who feels like they're making the wrong decisions in their life and terms of their relationship, this song came on. And it hit me.
It's easy to feel like you're not doing anything right. Or that you're stuck. Or that everything you do seems to make your partner mad or upset or sad. But the truth is that it's alright. You're awkward, you're nervous. And I know those feelings all too well. I basically live there. So, if you're ever feeling like you might be doing something wrong in your relationship, take a deep breath, listen to this song, and realize it's alright.
You're just trying to read but I'm always standing in your light. You're just trying to sleep but I always wake you up to apologize. I'm sorry I don't laugh at the right times. I know how it seems when I always sing to myself in public. I babble on like a mad man. I know how it seems when I'm always staring off into nothing. I'm lost in my head again. I'm sorry I don't laugh at the right times. Is this what it feels like? I've got my heart strung up on clothing line through tenement windows in mid-July. I've got my heart strung up on clothing line through tenement windows. I'm sorry I don't laugh at the right times. Is this what it feels like with my wings clipped? I'm awkward and nervous. I'm awkward and nervous.