3 years ago5,000+ Views
Genre: Angst
Pairing: Jungkook x Reader
Length: 1338 words
Summary: It was always the same with him. Until I lost interest.
Part: 1/?
It had been a month now. He was always ‘busy’ or ‘had lectures’. But I knew the truth. He wasn’t bothered about me anymore. I always had to catch the bus to his place, rather than him picking me up. I was always pushed to the side when he was around his friends. That irked me, especially when it was a cute girl who was betting her eyelashes at him. It made me feel worthless, unwanted.
Like right now. We had gone on a ‘date’ after so long. It was his idea, surprisingly, and I had agreed, thinking maybe he wanted to change, maybe he wanted to redeem himself. But no. We sat there, waiting for our food, me playing with the hem of my dress, trying not to look upset, and him textng away on his phone. It was like I didn’t even exist.
“Jungkook?” I spoke quietly. I had got here five minutes ago and he had looked up once to acknowledge my presence, then gone back to his phone.
I knew it would pain me if we broke up, but if he was intent on treating me like crap, then what was the point of this relationship?
“Hmm?” He didn’t look up as he carried on scrolling, or texting, or whatever the hell he was doing.
I had so much to ask. How are you? How’s studying going? Why did you want to meet up? What are you doing? But I wouldn’t be able to bear the one word vague replies he was going to give me.
Even his group of friends talked to me more than he did nowadays. But I hated the look of pity they had reserved for me whenever Jungkook blew me off in front of them. It’s not something I needed.
Jin, one of his friends, had asked me many times, ‘Why don’t you break it off?’ and could never give him an answer. It was a plethora of things- I was too scared. Maybe it was a phase he was gong through. Maybe I’ll never find someone as good as Jungkook ever again. So I always just stayed quiet, biting my lip to stop myself saying these things.
“Nothing”, I muttered, going back to play with my dress. Had he even noticed what I was wearing? Probably not. To be honest, I don’t know why I bothered to make an effort. Jungkook had actually looked up the waitress more times than he had looked at me.
After five more minutes of silence, I broke. I couldn’t take it anymore. I wanted to know what I had done to deserve this. From being his one and only to being treated like crap 24/7.
“Why don’t you just say it?” I blurted out, staring out the window. I had let this go on for a month now. I had to know.
“Say what?” In my peripheral vision, I could see that he still hadn’t looked up from his phone. I couldn’t believe him. The waitress bought over our plates of food, and Jungkook threw her a quick bright smile, before finally putting his phone down, repositioning his plate and finally looking at me.
I swallowed down the lump in my throat, and tried to keep my expression neutral.
“That you don’t want me in your life. That you don’t love me anymore.”
He frowned. “And who said that?”
“No one said it Jungkook, but I’m not blind. And I’m not an idiot. Your actions speak volumes.”
“My actions?” His confusion was slowly turning to annoyance. I hated this. I hated seeing Jungkook angry or annoyed. Well that used to be the case. Nowadays, I hardly even see him.
“Yes, your actions. You never talk to me. You never even look at me.”
He rolled his eyes and scoffed at me. There he goes again, making me feel like I’m stupid, like I’m in the wrong.
“Oh right, I get it. Just cus I’m not pining after you, giving you constant attention, you think I don’t love you?”
His voice was slowly getting louder, and a couple of heads were turning.
“Jungkook please, calm do-”
“No, I will not calm down y/n”, he hissed, glaring at me. “I have to balance my life around my studies. I give you time, when I have time. And this is still not enough? What the hell more do you want?”
I had had enough. What world what was he living in? He hardly ever gave me the time of day, no matter how bored he was.
I grabbed my bag, and looked at him. I couldn’t see his face, because the tears made my vision quite blurry. “I just want you to be happy”, I whispered. “Which you will be without me.”
“What? No. No y/n. Are you breaking up with me?!” The disbelief in his voice was almost comical, except for the tiny fact that I was in no mood to laugh.
“I hope you find someone who makes you happy”, I continued, standing up. I wiped my eyes and glanced at my watch. If I hurried, I could catch the next bus which was due in 4 minutes, rather than catching my death out in the cold.
I turned and practically ran, thankful for the fact that I was wearing flats. “Y/n? Y/n,wait!” Jungkook yelled, not caring about the other people sat there, trying to eat in peace.
“Ma’am”, a waiter gently stopped me to ask me, “Is that gentleman harassing you?”
I shook my head no, and carried on running. But the waiter knew I was lyng. “Sir, you’re going to have to pay for your food.”
I heard Jungkook mutter “Fuck’s sake” under his breath, but I also knew he was no longer after me. Thanking the waiter silently, I kept on running, the tears streaming down my face.
The bus had was about to leave the stop when I waved wildly like I maniac to stop it. Furiously wiping at my eyes again, I got on, and practically thrust my return ticket at the driver.
I turned to walk down the aisle and find a seat near the back where no one could see me and I froze. The bus was practically empty. There was a girl at the back, looking out the window, headphones in. And a couple of seats in front of her…
“Y/n, are you alright? What’s wrong?”
I sighed and gave him a weak smile. You know when you really don’t want to bump into a person, and you end up seeing that exact same person? Yeah..
“Hey Jin”, I smiled. I grabbed onto a pole for support as the driver started moving again. I tried to hide the fact that I was breathless and had been crying, but I’m pretty sure both were evident.
You’re probably wondering, y/n, why didn’t you want to see Jin?
There’s a reason for everything. When I first started seeing Jungkook, early on in the relationship, me and Jin had got extremely drunk. Like, I hardly remembered what happened that night.
All I know is I woke up next to him. We vowed to never speak of this again, but whenever I even looked at Jin when with Jungkook, I would feel so guilty. I know I wasn’t my normal self, and I was pissed beyond belief, but I had still gone behind his back with his friend.
As I made my way to sit on the seats opposite him, on the other side of the aisle, a horrifying thought occurred to me. What if Jungkook had been giving me the cold shoulder as punishment because he had found out? What if Jin had told him?
Jin shifted so he was facing me. He didn’t look the least bit perturbed that I hadn’t sat next to him. In fact, he was probably expecting it.
“Tell me what happened.”
I sighed as I looked into his eyes. Full of nothing but concern. This was going to be a long journey home.
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*sighs* *hands you my heart, soul, life, etc..* just take them already. just take em.
YAYAYAYAY Everytime I say I'll stick with one story 5 more come out 😂 I'm now reading 4 at the same time.
omg 😠 jungkook why are you such a butt huh! treating her like crap! i loved it omg please tag me in all of he chapters i love angst books i can never get tired of them as long as they have a happy or good ending
@yougotnojamz You don't even have to ask if any of your stories are worth continuing! They're all so good!!!
@crazychikki @SugaOnTop sorry guyssss
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