so this weekend I went out with a friend. I've not known this friend for very many years, but they are more like family to me than even my own family. some of our mutual friends refused to go to this event with us because of my presence. both of us were pretty hurt by these people's actions. to those people I have been open kind and honest. I'm not perfect and I don't expect anybody to be, but when that expectation is held to me and I'm judged for my past. after all that I have gone through after all the changes that I have made to better myself. to those who have judge me remember this, "how you make others feel about themselves, says a lot about who you are".