First the happy: I think I have mentioned this before but I am going to the Korea Times Music Festival for the second year in a row! It is this Saturday and I can't believe it's finally almost here! There are lots of amazing acts that are going to be there but the two I am most excited about are, of course, FT Island and SHINee!
However, I have had something pretty devastating happen to me this week; my dog, my crazy beautiful little chihuahua, my "Fur baby" passed away over the weekend.
She loved her babies (stuffed animals), starring into your soul, having her tongue out, snuggling, and telling me what to do. She was my baby and I don't know what I'm going to do a without her. This week is hard, but I know it's easier to not have her here now since I'm away from home, I can almost pretend she's just at home while I'm on vacation, however, I still feel so empty. I know how much she loved me and that she loved watching dramas and K-Pop with me; she'd want me to be happy, she hated it when I cried. I am determined to enjoy my vacation, things will be hard enough when I have to return to real life and my dog-less house next week. I'll be spending some time at Disneyland this week too, how can you stay sad when you're in the "Happiest place on earth," right? And then I'll get to see my beautiful boys perform, and many others as well. It's important to hold onto the the happy; not just the fun this week brings, but also remembering all the fun times I had with my baby girl and how lucky I was to have her in my life for over 5 years. She was a rescue and was difficult at times, but she also helped me survive some of my most difficult times. I named her Lyrica, which is a drug for nerve pain (what else would you expect from such a nerdy pharmacist) and even though her nickname was "Demon" she was often the perfect balm for my frayed nerves. Thank you for putting up with my need to talk about her today, I'm sure this is a very scattered post, it's the first day I've felt like I could; and since you guys are my K-Pop family I feel the need to share this huge thing that's happened to me. Love you guys!
Now to business: I will try to post after the festival, I have pretty good seats so I'm hoping to be able to get some good pictures, but even if they're all bad I'll just find some links from videos I'm sure others will be posting. Let me know if anyone wants tagged. There are lots of great acts coming (although my FT Island and SHINee boys would be worth the ridiculous about of money I spent on tickets) I'll also be seeing MFBTY, Wheesung, AOA, Red Velvet, WAX, and many others! I am excited for this week. I can survive this, I am tough and I've always tried to find the joy in life, I certainly can't stop now. Even with so much sadness in me right now, I know there is joy just around the corner.