The man was my close friend for 6 years, a recovering addict from Colorado that I helped and forgave and tolerated for a year. He fell for me and pushed a relationship even tho I wasn't quite ready and couldn't trust him. I let my guard down and trusted him. As soon as I needed support and had been dealing with severe depression he had said to me, "If you wanted to be dead you would be. I would take drugs and try to die, you cut yourself for attention." He eventually apologized for that, but later he left me and said that he could never love anyone as much as his ex. In the beginning, his ex was why I had my guard up and couldn't trust him. In the end, he left me for that exact reason... It hurt because we shared so much but I've forgave him, helped myself, and have moved forward!